A nearly perfectly round bump 🟡💞
The hearts really come for hitting 39 weeks today. I have never been as uncomfortable as I am in my body right now. But we are officially full term! Stretch marks, and visible veins, and grown baby and grown titties lol we made it.
I am abundantly proud of my body for sustaining both me and a whole other being for 39 weeks. This pregnancy has been miserable honestly, but this last week I'm just excited to m33t baby admist all the uncomfortable-ness. I am ready for the next chapter, and hope I make a much better mom then a pregnant lady!
I've been so anxious of every single step throughout this entire process. I haven't lived in the present at all, unless it's been due to pain. But im trying my best to ground myself until the end now. Everything will work out as it's supposed to, and I'm going to grow with the journey I'm on, and not resist all the changes.
I feel like I'm going through a whole second puberty, with all the confusion and chaos I feel. I'm sure if you've expierced parenthood you can relate as well. It's such a time of change and you aren't the same person you were on the other side. I vow not to loose myself, but to grow and gain new skills alongside finding all the pieces of me again ❤️
Thanks for being here through all this guys. I love and appreciate you all so much it's unreal. Here's to taking the next step from pregnancy to parenthood very soon! But mostly here's to living in the present and finding ourselves in everything ✨️✨️✨️
Also a silly picture for you all 🍉🍉🍉
I 100% feel like I'm smuggling a watermelon. I could go into labor any day now though! So finger and toes crossed its sooner rather then later 😬
I just wanted to say a happy Thanksgiving weekend to everyone ❤️ I hope you all got to spend time with people you're thankful for and just got to enjoy some down time with some things that bring you some comfort! No matter what that is, living person or pet or anything at all! I know this is a hard time of year for a lot of people, and I just want you all to know my heart is with you all, always.
I am beyond grateful and thankful doesn't even begin to describe how I feel about each and every one of you. Every year I always express so so much gratitude for everything you guys have added into my life and all the love and the amount of care you all have shown me. And this year is no different. My heart is just as full and warm and full of love as every year ✨️ this year may have looked different from an online stand point but the gratefulness hasn't changed a bit, if anything it's just gotten even more massive. Somehow some way lol im so so happy I get to share existence during the same time as you all, and that we all have crossed paths. Thank you for everything you all are! And everything you do! Here's a cheers to a cozy weekend, and a lovely whole 'other calendar year to come and be even more grateful for yet again 😊❤️
Pelvis update! I had my doctors appointment today, and she got me an emergency chiropractor appointment lol
Which helped even just going for the first time, I go again on Monday so fingers crossed I'll actually be able to sit or like stand up now 😂 never a dull moment this pregnancy. But hey, I'm just glad my pain was taken seriously and I actually got a little bit of help with it
Here's a more realistic bump view!
Also we are still on the "no photoshopping stretch marks" train! I gotta learn to love my body, and definitely wanna share the whole self love journey with you all ❤️
Cuz you should love everything you are too 😊☀️
Also have been a lil quiet cuz I either
A) pulled a muscle between my thigh and pussy
Or
B) my public bone is straight attempting to split in half (which can happen late in pregnancy)
But im in a massive amount of pain whenever I move around. Like roll over at night, walk around, bend over, sit, ya know... all the everyday movements lol idk how much more I can take. At this point I'll be GRATEFUL to be in labor, even with its pain! Lol never a dull moment for me and my body these 9 months
I woke up to it SNOWING this morning?!??!?!
Which I guess makes sense cuz it is mid November now, but wowie I feel like it isn't time for that yet. But the holidays are right around the corner now. Even Thanksgiving is next weekend!
Half of me says "where the fuck has the time gone" and the other half of me says "how the fuck am I still pregnant" lmfao
How's time going by for you guys? And how do we feel about the snow? 🌨❄️
(If it's snowing by you lol)
Naked no-filter shower update! 🚿
Talking about feeling better, and breaking down and also leaking titties lol which is a summary of my life lately lmfao thought it was time for a lil video update though 😁 happy Saturday! I think maybe I said happy friday in the video? Idk what day it is...ever
I think I can be at peace with some stretch marks, but I also think these will fade as my body heals after all this too. I feel like they'll just fade into something you can only see in the right light, and when the sun shines on them ☀️ since they're so superficial and not deep.
But who knows!
Give me your honest opinion on stretch marks.
I can't change them, and my skin stretched to make a whole other being! So I feel like I can't possibly be mad at them. How do you feel?
(Ps this photo is 100% unedited and I didn't take it from "the best angle", but we're getting comfy with our authentic selves here)
Happy hump day!!!! 🎉🎉🎉🐫
Thought of the day : I think since hitting 34 weeks pregnant (not sure why 34 weeks did it for me) I've felt like the countdown really started. Because 5 weeks and some change sounds a lot closer then 7 weeks or 6 weeks for some reason lol
And I feel like now that I'm on the home stretch of pregnancy, only 30 days until my due date, I have come to peace with my body a little bit.
Not entirely. And I absolutely still don't recognize myself in the mirror. And maybe it's just because the "changing drastically" phase is nearly over, or maybe because I won't get much bigger then I am now. Or maybe I've found a bit of peace in my body changing just for this tiny human it's growing.
But I feel a bit more content with it all. So much has changed on the outside, and I know stepping into motherhood a lot will change on the inside too. But one thing I realized I don't want to lose in all of this is, myself
I dont want to get lost in all the change. I'm still me. And I want to make sure I keep my self identity and the things I like and appreciate close to me. And my body is a big part of that, because you all are a big part of that. And my sexuality is a big part of that. And my job is big part of it! So maybe that's why it's felt so scary changing this entire time, because so much of my self feels so connected to my body. But also why it feels better and more peaceful now that that change is coming to a close.
Or maybe I just feel more connected to myself because I'm in so much pain all the time, and my body is prepping itself for labor and I can't help but feel all of that 😂 who knows!
Either way, thanks for coming to my self identity and self image Ted talk. As always, you guys are the best ❤️
Somehow, some way, I've still managed to keep my curves.
Even nearly 9 months pregnant 😂
Also my butt is HOTTTT (aka red because the hot water feels way too good on my back lol)
Happy Sunday ☀️
I got a bunch of stuff done around the house today! Which is a reason to celebrate in this pregnancy in general, let alone at 35 weeks! Some cheers to productivity today, and to feeling honestly better then I have in a while. There's only 33 days left until my due date and I'm over the moon to have this tiny human on the outside of me. Feels like a countdown to a birthday celebration now 🎉
And plus, I'm sure taking care of anemia and my kidney stones and bladder infection have something to do with feeling better too 😂 but I'll take it no matter what!
How is your Sunday? And how was your weekend???
When you can't reach your pussy anymore so it's hard as FUCK to take pussy pics 🥺
But also wet as fuck all the time and can't even properly show it off!
I posted a bunch to snapchat today if you wanna check it out 😁 I miss snapchat a shit ton! So it was nice to vent a bit and try on some bras, even though they don't fit 😂🥲
If you don't have me on snapchat btw, add me!!!!!! Its
Daydreamurxxx
I believe I've added everyone back as well, but if you don't have me there, check it out! It's another place to keep up with lil ole me... well not so little right now, but still!
Happy day after Halloween!
I reallllyyyy wanted to take pussy pics today, but um... its really difficult to get a good angle now 😂
I didnt realize how hard it'd be to get a good picture about a month out from giving birth! The self timer shall be set up tomorrow lol
HAPPY HALLOWEEN 🎃🧙♀️🎃👻
I hope everyone had a frighteningly good day today! Had to share the scariest thing I saw today, which was how tragically small my bra was 😂
THROWBACK!!!!! to a spookier time, I can't wait to dress up for spooky season again next year when my costumes fit 😂 but man oh man. I have no idea what this costume was supposed to be, but it was sexy as fuck 🔥🥵
Health update!!
I woke up with the same damn intense pain this morning. I called the hospital and they were rather unhelpful, still couldn't give me my test results of if I just had a kidney infection or had kidney stones too.
Buttttttttt low and behold, I went to the bathroom and freaking p33d out a rather large kidney stone this morning 🥲
At least all the pain makes sense!
And hopefully there's no more and I'm done with all this shit now lol what fucking chaos. I've slept on and off today with my heating pad as I was just sore. But dear God, hopefully I'm actually freaking recovering now!
Sorry if all this is this, just keeping you all updated! Fucking kidney stones man, what a curve ball
I am home and resting now ❤️
So all is okay! Got antibiotics to take 3 times a day and have to hydrate A LOT and get good rest. Should be all good soon.
What an adventure all this has been... I feel like a sincerely ill person with all the supplements and perscriptions I'm taking lol between my prenatal vitamins, vitamin D, iron, progesterone perscription and now antibiotics??? And Tylenol for the fever I've had the past few days, man oh man lol can't wait til I don't have to remember such an extensive pill regime 😂
Shit ass update, ya girl ended up in the ER last night and had to stay the night at the hospital
I am okay, and baby is okay. But I have a kidney infection / kidney stones.
Had sudden excruciating pain that would not go away in my left side. So here we are 🥲
I've got fluids and antibiotics, got a dose of the good pain meds at least lol
But I just CANNOT catch a damn break lately. Just wanted to update you all!
Maybe that's why I've still felt like shit after fixing my iron. But my bl00d tests showed my iron supplements are working at least lmao normal iron levels now! So that's one good thing.
Now to fix this other thing lol hope you all are having a better weekend then me 😂
I am so glad I caught the light through the windows today.
It's been a while since I got the rainbows just right
The way the light shined on my skin used to make me feel so magical and beautiful. Literally just felt like there was fairy dust in the air ✨️
I dont feel that right now, and do not feel that way about my body lately. But I know it will come back.
Maybe not in the same way. Maybe I'll feel good about my body because it will have made a baby that I fell in love with. Maybe I'll love my body because I'll have a new found appreciation for it.
Maybe I'll love it because I'll have to work hard to get it back to where I want it.
Either way, I know I will get back to a place of self love.
I do appreciate all that my body is doing, and I am trying to show myself grace in all stages but it's exponentially hard
But I will keep trying, and there will be a rainbow at the end of it all ❤️🌈☀️
Currently trying to : -Stream every day
-Not complain about pregnancy
-Find some happy
Results : -Being an emotional mess + crying A LOT
-hating pregnancy "quietly"
-being a stressed out mess honestly
I feel like all I've done is complain about being pregnant so I tried not doing that, and it's resulted in me not posting much here or on snapchat for the last few weeks. Because all I can think about is HOW MUCH I HATE BEING PREGNANT. and how miserable I feel inside and out. This entire journey has been a struggle and I can't wait to be done with the pregnancy chapter and move into the new mom chapter. I apologize for my lack of positivity and good mood, and lack of good mood to share! It shall be back! But for now, there may be some captions of me just disliking being pregnant, because I want to post more lol
It's all give and take right? Lmao
But here's the nearly 33 week update 😂
Hello everyone 👋
Bump update!!! 32 weeks and I freaking pinched a nerve in my back yesterday cleaning 🥲
This extra weight is no joke! But now my house is clean, baby shower stuff all put away, grocery shopping done. Time to stream this week 🎉
HELLO!!!!!!!! 👋👋👋 And happy freaking Tuesday!
I have a nice big update for everyone (and explanation of why I was gone for a few days!) So get your reading glasses on cuz it might be a little long lol
First off, I FINALLY figured out what works for me taking my iron! I have tried so many things since finding out I'm anemic, and I figured out the combination of food and vitamin C freaking works! The only thing that has kept me from being nauseous and feeling like crap. Drinking a fucking sunny D with my vitamin. Who would have thought.
So boom! Got that figured out.
I only figured that out after nearly going into pre-term labor this last Saturday 😅 I over did it physically and didn't hydrate enough and felt miserable because of my vitamins and had contractions the entire evening that evening. Everything is okay now! But definitely needed to rest a day or 2 after to make sure the contractions didn't make a come back.
I also had my baby shower with my family this past weekend, on Saturday, hence why I over did it physically and was stressed enough for contractions to come on lol it honestly was chaos and there was some family drama. But ultimately turned out all good in the end! And I am so so grateful for the things our families helped with! I don't have much left to get for baby now! And I can pretty much get it all on amazon even. So I've made myself a good list of things left to get, the planner part of me is very satisfied and content now.
And because I have been so sick this pregnancy my finances have definitely took a nose dive (being honest is what we do here, so just talking about stresses, and im sure we can all relate to money stress lol) and I only have 2 FREAKING MONTHS LEFT UNTIL BABY! now I have my vitamins set I should be back up and participating in streams! But I know I'm going to have to take 2 months off after baby gets here, at least for sexy stuff. Because I'll have a literal giant wound in me from my placenta. And I was really stressed out because I didn't know how I'd be able to save up rent money for those couple of month's. Butttttt I believe I found a place that'll work out a personal loan with me! So Im ecstatic and happy to have that stress figured out.
I'll still be here on onlyfans for my entire pregnancy, and my whole post-baby Everything! I actually have a SHIT TON of content saved up to post videos just about every other day 😁 so there will be no lack of content while I'm recovering! Which is another thing I was trying to work out and plan, and have done as well.
So I am feeling better stress wise, and vitamin wise lol and just wanted to update you all on everything! I will be back on stream, maybe doing some sunny D shots, this coming week 😉
I hope you all have been good! And if you read this whole entire update, you rock. And are my favorite kind of person ❤️❤️❤️
