Dont mind the π
After we get comfy in a cam schedule i think we'll have to plaster my wall with things again, what should we put up this time? Lol
4 leaf clovers for st paddys day coming up?
Flowers for spring coming?
One more throwback pic for good measure lol
Also update!!!! :
My lil test run with my small human being watched by my mom went well!! So we are all a go for stream on friday πππ i had a great time showering by myself while i was alone, even posted a good ole "shower show" to snapchat lol i missed doing those
I did get overwhelmed becasue i tried on some pants after my shower that didnt fit (its okay, i know clothes are made to fit me im not made to fit clothes and thats okay! Just was having a moment) and then i leaked milk everywhere while i got dressed π₯² so i did get a little upset and cut the time small human was away short. But i made it 3 hours! So i was proud of myself, and said that that was good enough π when im streaming time always flies by and i know ill be fine and hell be fine. So its all good.
Im going to have to prepapre myself for cam though, im going to be leaking milk everywhere! Well have to have the cum rags at the ready, they may be deemed "milk rags" now πππ
Throwback to feb 11th last year! Twas a stream day π₯²β€οΈ and i streamed on valentines day too!
Thatll be a good throwback on tuesday that i post π
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ILL BE BACK ON STREAM A WEEK FROM TODAY
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wtf im so excited?!?!?
Do i still have the booty? Yes
Is my room still messy? Yes
Some things never change lol
I am falling in love with myself again, and with every new mark or wrinkle my body has.
Because it all came from something amazing! And my body is still doing amazing things! AND its still taking care of me through it all too.
The marks might fade, i might get more throughout life, who knows. But i know im going to appreciate myself through all my phases. And most of all, im going to be gentle and im going to give myself the same grace i always give others.
Im honestly so excited to come back to stream and to be naked and comfortable again ππ
THE UPDATE IS π₯
I WILL BE BACK TO STREAM ON
ππππFEBRUARY 17TH!!!!!!ππππ
ππππ2 WEEKS FROM TODAY!!!!ππππ
Quick update for you all, YA GIRL HAS ALL THE MILK
Lol but seriously, i have so much. I have a bunch in my freezer that i saved cuz i have extra, whay does one do with extra milk?
Breast feeding is going good though! It started out as the hardest part of it all, and now i think is the easiest! Weve fallen into a good routine with pumping, i pump every morning and always have extra so there is always a bottle in the fridge if i need a break and small human gets hungry π and theres a bunch of extra milk ive been freezing! Plus, whippin' a boob out still feels poweful and awesome, and just STILL nourshing my small human entirely from my body feels rad too. I nourished him 9 months on the inside and am still doing it with him on the outside! Which is much much better for my mental health lmao
But im rocking and rolling over here and doing pretty good, how are you all doing?
Hello everybody!!!! My update today is i found a bra that fits!!!!!!
It was an xmas present and its a fucking 32i
What even are these titties anymore and where am i ever going to find another bra that fits ππππ
32i
Wtf
FIRST POST BABY PUSSY SHOT ππππ
I got the all clear from my midwife today, and she said I healed perfectly! And that that everything looks beautiful π then made a joke about complimenting my vagina lmfao
Ps I think im happier with my pussy now too, me and my body are rekindling our relationship nicely and I'm just more comfy with myself then ever! β€οΈ
Large titties if you scroll through πβ‘οΈ
But also I look like me mostly! Just XXXXXL titties lmfao
Also I would like to be a hippie in these pants and no shirt for forever (or at least until my boobs needed support lmao)
My little tiny self trying to see if you could see I was pregnant here π I was 12 or 13 weeks here and man I was tiny! I thought everyone could tell there lol
Fun fact, in the first trimester I lost 10 + lbs cuz I was so sick π₯² so I was definitely at my smallest I had been in a while here
Still proud as heck of my body, I had a small human exit my body 5 weeks ago?!?!
Like WOW MY BODY DID THAT?!?!?! went from uber pregnant to THIS in 5 weeks?!?!? π I congratulate her (I say her cuz my body has done this all on its own, I've just fed and watered it π)
So as it turns out, I still have a butt!!!!! π
And damn does that feel nice to say lol I can't wait until I'm cleared to work out and can get back to squats πͺ
(Only 1 more week until I'm POSSIBLY cleared to work out π)
Throwback pussy π
I can't wait to take pussy pics to post again π
I'm ALMOST THERE!!!!!! legit almost to the point of physical healing I can take pics again! Lol
Honestly I think my pussy is even prettier now and I'm excited to show her off β¨οΈ annnndddd I plan on shaving too? After not shaving all pregnancy i feel like it'll feel like a fresh start to be clean shaven!
πΆπΆ were going on a trip of self acceptance πΆπΆ
Sung to the tune of were going on a trip in our favorite rocket ship π π
Seriously though, im nearly a month post partum now. And this is the most grace, and kindness I have ever given myself in any life transition.
And it feels fantatsic.
I am down almost 30 pounds from the last week of my pregnancy π which is amazing! My body has done it all by itself, working overtime to nourish me and my small human too! But the transition to motherhood has been so so much more then just me partially getting my body back. I have never seen myself clearly, and as discussed before have had body dysmorphia my entire life. But I feel like I can finally see myself. And I can finally see and appreciate all the things my body has done for me. I am definitely not in love with how my body looks right now, but I can be content.
I can be content with ALLLLL it has done for me! And it gave me something pretty damn amazing.
All these stretch marks and new lines and creases are there showing just that.
And for now, that is okay. I'm still healing on the inside too (literally my uterus is still healing), so of course my body isn't back on the outside. My abs still aren't even completely back together (they separate during pregnancy). So I am more then content with all the progress I've made. And I plan on going through the rest of my recovery with the same attitude.
And when I am well enough and strong enough to work out, I will gracefully go on that journey with my body as well. With patience and kindness, and showing myself and my body the gentleness I deserve β¨οΈ
I have not trusted my body in a long long time. And im ready to get back to that point. And am currently doing just that! Trusting my body to heal at the pace it needs. While maneuvering through all the other parental changes.
But I do have to say, I never though I could love another being more then I loved my bird, or that I could feel my heart beat out of my chest the way it did for my significant other with another, but I am absolutely head over heels for my small human. I don't think this love can be topped!
On another note though, I cannot wait until I am well enough to stream again. I FINALLY feel well enough mentally to stream without a question. I feel as though am entire piece of myself has been missing being away. And I can't wait to have space for myself, and my own happiness and wants through it again! I took my tiny being into my streaming room for the first time the other day and was telling him all about how it's my happy place π I can't wait to be able to feel connected to myself sexually again, and just to have space for just me! And to be able to share allllllllllllllllll of it with all of you!
The future is finally looking a little sunny. And im feeling good.
I hope your paths are looking even brighter and more magical β¨οΈ and that your feeling even better! I love and miss you all, and will return to normalcy as soon as I can π but for now, enjoy the updates and throwbacks!
Okay so since I had my small human I haven't seen my pussy right?... actually I couldn't see it while I was pregnant either π
But I finally was brave enough yesterday to check her all out, and I am pleased to say
SHE STILL LOOKS LIKE HERSELF!!!!!!!!
even after a 9lb human lmfao
I am so proud of her and her recovery πβ€οΈ
She's still healing but I am thrilled so far
Can't wait till it's not sore so I can actually feel like my normal sexual self
(Also these pics are from exactly a year ago!)
GONNA BE ABSOLUTELY TRANSPARENT ON THIS JOURNEY WITH YOU ALL!
I want to love my body the exact way it is, in all its phases, in all its healing and rebuilding and recovering its doing. It has worked so so hard to bring another human here safely, and to keep me nursished and now to STILL keep them nourished even on the outside of me. I am proud and happy with everything my body has done for me. And for being only a week and 4 days out of giving birth... I feel like my body has done a fantastic job! π β¨οΈ
Here's a cheers to loving ourselves exactly the way we are β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
This time last year I was taking pictures of my butthole πβ¨οΈ
This year I traded it for some sleepless nights and someone sucking on my tiddies π sounds lovely when you put it that way (it is lovely just not in that way lmao)
So would you believe I had a whole 9 POUND FREAKING HUMAN IN THERE!??!?!?!! im only 5 ft 6 in so I have no idea how they fit in there.
But I have been over run by parenthood.
I was doing good! Up until my milk came in and wowie, breast feeding and pumping is a lot of work. And of course my huge titties over produce so they're huge and hurt too. What a freaking crazy thing making milk is lol but I barley had time to even eat today π₯² it shall get better! I am just more busy then I've ever been in my life lol
UPDATE!!!!! I AM NO LONGER PREGNANT!!!!!!!
will go into details, and post the promised videos leading up to Xmas tomorrow π
Baby came before their due date! And im so stoked to be done being pregnant lol baby is safe, as am I! I had my home birth successfully and had no pain medsss!!!!!! (Ps I will NEVER DO THAT AGAIN)
But they're adorable and healthy! So I shall be soaking up some new born snuggles for a minute now lol
A December 4th throwback for ya!
Fast forward to now, I'm currently stuck in false labor lol have had contractions multiple nights, last night being the worst! Went from 230am to 7am and it wasn't real labor π₯² I cry.
I want it to be the real thing! Lol
Next year will be back to looking cute on December 4th π