🎶🎶 were going on a trip of self acceptance 🎶🎶 Sung to the tu..

🎶🎶 were going on a trip of self acceptance 🎶🎶 Sung to the tune of were going on a trip in our favorite rocket ship 🚀 😂 Seriously though, im nearly a month post partum now. And this is the most grace, and kindness I have ever given myself in any life transition. And it feels fantatsic. I am down almost 30 pounds from the last week of my pregnancy 🎉 which is amazing! My body has done it all by itself, working overtime to nourish me and my small human too! But the transition to motherhood has been so so much more then just me partially getting my body back. I have never seen myself clearly, and as discussed before have had body dysmorphia my entire life. But I feel like I can finally see myself. And I can finally see and appreciate all the things my body has done for me. I am definitely not in love with how my body looks right now, but I can be content. I can be content with ALLLLL it has done for me! And it gave me something pretty damn amazing. All these stretch marks and new lines and creases are there showing just that. And for now, that is okay. I'm still healing on the inside too (literally my uterus is still healing), so of course my body isn't back on the outside. My abs still aren't even completely back together (they separate during pregnancy). So I am more then content with all the progress I've made. And I plan on going through the rest of my recovery with the same attitude. And when I am well enough and strong enough to work out, I will gracefully go on that journey with my body as well. With patience and kindness, and showing myself and my body the gentleness I deserve ✨️ I have not trusted my body in a long long time. And im ready to get back to that point. And am currently doing just that! Trusting my body to heal at the pace it needs. While maneuvering through all the other parental changes. But I do have to say, I never though I could love another being more then I loved my bird, or that I could feel my heart beat out of my chest the way it did for my significant other with another, but I am absolutely head over heels for my small human. I don't think this love can be topped! On another note though, I cannot wait until I am well enough to stream again. I FINALLY feel well enough mentally to stream without a question. I feel as though am entire piece of myself has been missing being away. And I can't wait to have space for myself, and my own happiness and wants through it again! I took my tiny being into my streaming room for the first time the other day and was telling him all about how it's my happy place 😊 I can't wait to be able to feel connected to myself sexually again, and just to have space for just me! And to be able to share allllllllllllllllll of it with all of you! The future is finally looking a little sunny. And im feeling good. I hope your paths are looking even brighter and more magical ✨️ and that your feeling even better! I love and miss you all, and will return to normalcy as soon as I can 😊 but for now, enjoy the updates and throwbacks!