SQUATS FOR DAYYYSSSSSSS
Lets get my perfectly round ass back πͺπ₯
I want my booty to look like it can be dribbled across a basketball court lol lets get it!
(Ps this angle is drool worthy π€€)
The total for our squat count is
...π₯**drumroll**π₯...
50!!!!!!!
Im feeling generous and am doing a squat for every 2 likes instead of 5 lol between the 2 posts there was 60! And then adding in the tips, we got 50 whole squats.
Im ready for my thighs to burn π₯
Maybe ill even do them outside π€
HAPPY FRIDAY ππππ
Every 5 likes is βοΈ squat
And every π²1 is βοΈ squat!
Lets do a whole squat video today! Naked of course!
Lets see how many you guys will make me do π€£
If this goes well, ill post another video on SUNDAY, of me doing allllllllll the squats again! So itll be a 2 for 1 lol lets get my booty fit again πͺ
Thinking of upgrading all my panty packages to include a polaroid of me in the panties, and a handwritten post card just for you β€οΈ
And the picture being signed?
I feel like its the little extras that will make it more fun to open!!!!!
What do you think? Anything else youd like to see in panty packages?
Without further anticipation....
Our outdoor photoset πππβ οΈ
I got a little sunburnt yesterday, and stripped for these pics. I realllllyyyy love being outside naked wowie
There shall be a whole outdoor photo set today!!!! πβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπ
Thank you for reaching the goal guys π₯Ήβ€οΈ
Seriously you all make me feel so fucking loved and cherished. I am SOOOOO lucky to experience the love you guys share with me! Thank you thank you
Alsooooo getting to messages tomorrow!!!! β€οΈ
And lets set a goal for another outdoor picture set? βοΈ
Ill have time tomorrow!
Anyone who tips will get pics from me even if we dont reach the goal πβ€οΈ
Happy Saturday π
Tomorrow i have a new video for everyone! π
So lets celebrate that; and i hope everyone is enjoying their weekend!
I got headbutted by my small human and now have a fat lip that got cut on a tooth π€£ butttttttttt it's still a good day! I declare it!
Goals β¨οΈβ¨οΈ
I feel like i havent shared or written down my ambitions and wants in a while. So let me share them π
- to start a sustainable business. I want to make clothes out of scrap fabric or repurpose old clothes. (Ive been sewing more and trying to figure out a good way to piece scraps together, slowly figuring it out!)
-for said business i want to make my own tags out of recycled paper and use old book pages / pictures for the aesthetic β¨οΈ
-to be able to keep up with messages here!
-to be a present mother. I want to be patient and in the moment and to not put out the feeling like i have somewhere else to be. Things can wait, childhood can not
-to have a garden, both for food and for flowers. Ive always had the opposite of a green thumb, but i love plants and would love to garden outside and be able to pick vegtables and fruits and flowers π₯Ή
-to feel sexual again! I want to feel rooted in feminity more frequently and to feel empowered by my curves and body and just feel damn sexy!
-to cook more. Seriously just wanna make some bomb meals lol
-get a good self care routine in place. Wash mt fac, brush my hair, brush my teeth, take my vitamins. Im lucky if i get two of those things a day right now
- get back to a place that i have enery to feel thoughtful and can make people things and do things for others again
And last and maybe most importantly to feeling like myself....
-GET ON A REGULAR STREAM SCHEDULE! Even if its only once a week. I want to be online again
Today wise words
β¨οΈbe so confidently and passionately yourself, that you make others feel comfortable and safe being themselves too β¨οΈ
This is always, and will always be a safe place. Both for me to share every aspect of myself and for you guys to feel comfortable sharing yourselves with me, and just to hopefully feel less alone and more confident in yourself too! In sexual aspects and in every other aspect too β€οΈβοΈ
π¨π¨π¨AUGUST SPECIALπ¨π¨π¨
If you JUST want the messaging and my number and not any extras, this months special (august 2023) will be the club being $60 !!!!
You can tip on this post or use any other payment or tip options. Or message me π
full version explained in this picture is still available and always will be! But just if youd like a cheaper option π€·
I didnt get all my messages gone through yesterday! So finishing them up today! β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ
You will 100% hear from me today if you havent yet!
If you still dont hear from me then i owe you my entire twerk video bundle π€£
Im putting that out there on the line π
So expect to here from me!
Life β¨οΈ
Wednesday and thursday were wash out days for me.
I have given myself time to feel and my anxiety thanks me for it and i can move forward!
We had a scare with small human and the stairs so my anxiety was just at an all time high. And i think i sat there for hours just watching him breath π«
He is okay! Im okay! He continues to surprise me and be chaotic and hitting his movement milestones far too fast... hes a wrecking ball lol but some angel or good luck or grace of some shit kept him from getting uber hurt during his mishap.
Saturday is still a-go! I have a babysitter πππ
So i will be fully present and getting back to everyone!
This week small human also decided we are going down to 2 naps a day π how fun lol so were getting used to that schedule too.
Cheers to getting in a groove in august. Can this month be the month? Please please please, i need it!
(Also please go easy on my anxiety, its bad. And motherhood has made it 100x worse. I know shit happens with babies and they arent as fragile as we think. But i may need therapy cuz my anxiety always says otherwise π« i just am always transparent with you guys! And try my best to tell ya whats going on β€οΈ so everything is always raw, and how i would tell a friend about my life)
And here we are πβ¨οΈβοΈπ₯
This is the first "me time" ive had in well over a week! And im thrilled i got to be naked outside in it π
Seriously so so grounding, and exactly what i needed.
Nakedness.
Sunshine
And some risky nude pictures π€£
(Also wowie my hair dried fast in the sun!)
Life this past week β¨οΈ
Ive been trying to find time for hobbies.
Things i can do with my small human.
I grew up doing things with my parents but always things that we wanted to do. My mom completely formed her entire life around her small humans. She became "mom". And that was it. That was her identity. To this day i couldnt tell you my moms hobbies or things she likes besides hgtv and wine really lol i love her!
But i want to be a whole person to my small human. I want him to see that i have hobbies and to immerse him in all kinds of different things. And help him experience all kinds of things!
So im picking up hobbies again
Plus its good for me i think. To pick up the things i can that bring a little sparkle to the day β¨οΈ
Make sure to bring some sparkles to your day! And to keep that main character energy no matter what! You gotta have interests and hobbies and things you love to do
Also quick other thought. I dont know how to be sex positive in a parental setting π€£ i know ill figure it out but im gonna be a hippie ass mom man. Sex and nudity are π
Photo shoot from hump day will be posted tomorrow! I have planned to take an outdoor photo shoot for it and i have not gotten the 30 minutes to do so π₯Ί
Tomorrow i will!
So that will be posted for everyone, and extra pussy pics will be sent in pms!
I will be answering messages slowly (during 20 minute naptime π« ) throughout the week, as i have for the last 2 weeks. I can barley sift through messages that way though with how i respond to each of you lol i always take my time to have an actual conversation with everyone so it takes more then 2 seconds per message.
I will have time on thursday and saturday for videos and messages! Just so everyone knows β€οΈ
Slight delay in posts cuz ya girl broke her toe yesterday night π«
Peep the pinky toe, it was more crooked yesterday and now the swelling went down and its literally bruised allllllll underneath the poor toe too
(Also yes my one foot is way tanner then the other, cuz of how the sun hits the swing on our deck π€£π€£π€£π€£π€£)
It looks like we shall be having a hump day extravaganza! πππ
Pillow hump video has been unlocked! (At 31 / 30 dollars right now, if anyone wants to help the post go above and beyond β€οΈ)
And the post is at 38 likes out of 40! And that means we'll get a picture set tonight too!!!!!! πππ only 2 likes away from close up pussy pics lol
Happy HUMP DAY!!!!!!!!!!! πππ
If this post gets 40 likes ill post a pillow hump video π
If it gets 30+ dollars in tips ill post a WHOLE NEW picture set! With pussy close ups of course!
If both happen... well... we get both! Lol
Happy monday! Tis a new week
A new week with good vibes and hopefully good things happening β¨οΈ
Whats something your excited for or hope to happen this week? π₯Ήβ€οΈ
I have been raw and vulnerable
Always
But i feel like things have been more "matter of fact" lately. And my updates have been more literal and less about how im feeling, instead its been what has been going on. Cuz lets be real, there is never a dull day with a small human lol
But how are you guys lately? Hows your anxiety? Hows your mental health been? Have you been gentle with yourself and taken time for you? While also trying to be a badass and get shit done of course.
Its tough to balance but i hope youve struck it just right and are enjoying where you are right now.
I have struggled deeply lately.
I have been truly unhappy a lot. I think a lot of it is due to postpartum depression and having no time for myself. It is so so hard to even just find the time to brush my teeth and wash my face everyday, and its hard to feel good when i cant even do that. But Im working on it!
Im working on making sure i get time for the little things. Im a better mom when my cup is full, so i can pour into others. And i know that. I need to remember to do a face mask once in a while and to take my vitamins so i feel good enough to make others feel good.
Ive really truly lost big pieces of myself in motherhood so far. And i am deeply missing working right now. I miss streaming. I miss being able to make content and be creative. I miss playing with make up and outfits and taking pictures. I love my job. Like i am literally in love with it! I wanna be that 50 year old hippie still doing this!
And i know things ebb and flow, and there are seasons for everything, and that this season with a small human is the season of a messy house and lack of time and a full heart. This is the time to soak in snuggles and to be there as much as i can. Cuz small humans arent small long.
Logically i know this, i just really miss working. I miss the grind. Its been a long time since ive been able to do that. I know ill get back to it! But for now im sad i cant have that at the moment.
Im trying to feel more in touch with myself by picking up a hobby! Ive picked up sewing again for a bit now. Ive made a few things and picked up old projects and honestly im thrilled with that! I feel like its going back to my roots. I took fashion construction when i was younger, and was sewing with my grandma even longer. So sewing and making things holds a special place in my heart and makes me feel more connected to my grandma whos no longer here as well
Im trying to take on a sustainable vibe with the things ive been creating! Using scrap fabric and taking apart clothes i otherwise would have donated to good will, or just using things we didnt need around the house. So that has made me feel good about it too! Repurposing things is always awesome. And i love the eco friendly stuff, makes me feel like im making a difference even though im not lol
So thats where im at. Honestly my mind is just constantly filled with day dreams about the projects for sewing i want to do π€£ and the content i want to create and the streams i want to have.
And ill get to all my ideas in due time. I know where my passions lay, and that is amazing in itself! So for now ill be patient and just go enjoy some snuggles.
Take lots of deep breaths, and to try and remember to TAKE MY FUCKING VITAMINS!
(Thanks for reading this sort of journal entry if you did, i miss you all more then i can ever explain and i hope this feels a little like my stream ramblings so you can just feel where my heads at. I miss chatting with you all. You guys kept me sane lol)