Some of you might remember our last event, Backdoor NYE Dec ..

Some of you might remember our last event, Backdoor NYE Dec 31, 2023. My gosh has it ever been a wild journey since then. I left Vancouver with dreams to become an international event promoter after this solemn good bye party with 2 parties in production, one in Mexico City, one in Puerto Vallarta.I had finally done it, after a previous cancelled party in Vallarta, I had secured a licensed club in the heart of Zona Romantica. Only to see it crumble before my very eyes (read on). Like the time I lost the Main Steet Centre, or the Villa was arsoned, or I was threatened to be arrested if I did not throw parties in licensed clubs, or when I lost Central Studios and my life's savings because of pandemic shut downs. This was just one more time the rug had been pulled from under me.I was in Puerto Vallarta, and I had been promised to work with a famous pornographer who often films out of there. While I was promised no money, I had the opportunity to grace the big leagues of professional porn. But again, this was another misnomer. The director called me to his villa, where I believed I would be discussing the filming, how innocent I was. The director tried to p1ss on me, and call me homophobic slurs, in a bizarre and painful casting couch incident. When I spoke up for myself and said I would not be depicted like this, he said I am too fat to ever make it in porn and had no future in the industry. He told me to get the fuck out of his house with my ugly daddy body.That sounded like a challenge to me, not just to succeed in Commercial Porn, but to do it in a way that was loving and affirmative to my people. The complete opposite of my recent experience.I left his Villa crying, returning to a friends house, Ridick. He's a famous European porn star. He said he would get me a real gig that actually pays and days later I was starring in a professional erotic cinema produced by CutlersDen. The shoot went so well, and when I got out of the shoot I checked Facebook and discovered I was once again embroiled in another scandal and my PV party was in jeapordy. I just made professional porn, only to see my other profession crumble in all the big plans I had for it. Isn't it strange how we as marginlized gay men are so quick to attack other gay men rather than the dominant culture? I was actually being slandered by white older gay men, the same people I was trying to help. As I like to say in these situations, God never says no, she just says not right now or I have something better planned, and boy, did she ever! The party was cancelled because I had put up posters around Zona Romantica, featuring beautiful drawings of gay cherubs. A sermon was held at the Cathedral about my ungodliness, and the mayor called for me to be arrested. I was once again in danger, for the crime of helping men to love men openly, and I had to flee the state to Nuevo Vallarta. During this time I had a minor heart event and had to seek medical attention. So much trauma had been piled onto me over the years by people wishing to see my fail. Back in Vancouver, rumours were spinning, the schadenfreude was real. I quickly decided to also cancel my party in Mexico and leave the industry entirely, less i sacrifice my health and safety. I am not a martyr. And so began my foray into professional porn. I moved to montreal for 18 months where I did over 50 studio scenes, while also flying to the USA every few months for other engagements. I ended up doing 11 scenes with CutlersDen, 2 scenes for Raging Stallion, 7 scenes for Men, 6 scenes for Men at Play, 5 scenes for Carnal+, 11 scenes for BroNetwork, as well as dozens of other scenes with brands like Treasure Island, BroMo, Reality Dudes, Naked Sword, Adulttime and many more. I was nominated in my first few months for Best Fetish Scene, and the following year recieved 8 GayVN nominations, and 1 Grabbies nomination (Best Newcomer), making me the most nominated Canadian of the year. I am extremely grateful to have receieved this platform. But I was missing something....To all the people who just knew me from porn, they didn't know about the rest of my life's work. Organizing the Dance Against Hate, during the pandemic to stop homophobic hate speech, or the Rally to Legalize poppers, which became a national election issue. Or my work to make industrial and commerical spaces legal for people like us to have special events with sex on premise, which later became law. We did these things together, and I felt empty as a simple sex symbol without the context of all my years before.How do I marry who I was with who I had become? How does Mateo hold a place for Matthew? I tried to create an event in Montreal, but nothing was happening organically and I trusted my gut it wasn't the right move. I decided to move back to my home. I had already done what I came to do in Montreal, and I had people telling me how much they missed my contribution to thier lives in Vancouver. I love this small community, despite our infighting and hurt feelings, I beleive we are strong powerful loving gay men together. So now, I am back here in Vancouver, Still working on my porn career, about to do a European studio tour, and feeling much more in harmony with who I am. I am many things beyond a porn star, I am an activist, a space maker, a rave-granny, and a fighter for gay people like me.I have launched a new event, not without more struggle and roadblocks, the venue I had booked was snatched up by the incoming election despite me already paying the deposit. It wasn't the first time the government had foiled my plans, covid, omricon, and all the police harrasment you saw us overcome together. Well, I found an even better venue for this party somehow, Elizabeth Taylor was looking out for me. I wanted to share this all with you, so you know I never really left you guys. You were always in my heart and I missed being there for you deeply. I am hoping that this Backdoor Resurrection Easter Weekend party is one for the record books, one for you to remember for a lifetime. I come into this event a wiser, changed man. I've seen the inner workings of Gay entertainment from every angle, in all of its corruption, and greed. That is not what I will make for the world, I want to change gay culture for the better with my work even by a small amount because over time that will be a huge deviation in course change. That's why this event I am creating is all about us loving eachother, because we all wanting to be loved. (me especially!!)I am asking you to join in this event if you can because I miss being a part of your lives. I love the Vancouver commununity, and it is you who made me who I am today and I am so grateful for the ten years of parties, festivals, and actions we made together to change Vancouver's nightlife DNA. I am proud to see other creators using my formula without the risk of being arrested, as I was. I am proud to have been one of the leaders to get us there.Please consider joining in the resurrection with us as it will be a party to remember, one where we validate each other as men who have sex with men, and aims to heal and grow our culture. If you're interested in seeing what happens when a seasoned event director, becomes an international porn star, only to take everything he has known and distill it into a specially curated event made just for you, this is the one. Thank you for hearing me out. I miss you all. Thank you again for always coming through for me, protecting me, and I will do the same for you all.

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