dirty mirror dancin -what’s your favorite song 2 dance to?
dirty mirror dancin -what’s your favorite song 2 dance to?
2023-08-23 08:38:15 +0000 UTC View Post
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THE STORY OF THE SLAYYY so hey everyone! you may be wonder..
THE STORY OF THE SLAYYY so hey everyone! you may be wondering: wtf!? yes? I dramatically announced THE AUCTION. With some of the rhymes told (the poems in the vid), here’s the reason! THE LORE!!!!!! At some point I entered the Dragon's nest. Not sure when exactly.. that was the title of an old MMO I used to play growing up. Then we all played Skyrim right? they say the ancients are still sleeping... As of NOW it’s an archetype that I identify with through my behavior of storing treasure. […FILES…WRITINGS…MELODIES…30000 PICTURES &VIDS...] This mythical power transcended into my material experience with Bad Dragon! The beloved maker of beautiful pleasure toys. Years down the line of this work I find it funny that I named myself THE SLAYER on a whim and it went this far. fucking awesome!!! also complex. The reasons behind me being in this role had me tangled up for awhile. This brand was introduced to me through an old flame in my 2nd year of Uni (let’s call them Z). My first relationship, 10 yrs, codependent, began when I was 15. People pleasing was a pattern embedded deep within me from how I was raised. Consistently I would place the needs of others before my own. Hentai gave Z a monster fetish and that brought them to BD. Z insisted that I try the big ones- then bigger & bigger ones! I was hesitant... then seeing the gleam in their eye as they coerced me, & wanting it sooo badly to shine on me… off we rode! Thus a precedent was set that would continue to spiral into a pattern of me over-giving myself +++ disregarding my curiosities of pleasure [tantric sexuality, WOMEN!]. This created a reality of numbness and detachment from true intimacy with self or other. The desires were not mine- but became so through fulfilling another. Maybe it was one powerfully poison prick on me from the pornography industry? Or is it an inversion of simple magnetism? idk! but why does poison taste so good sometimes? I love bringing people to fulfilment, I love being of service, I love being desired. Sexuality - > creative expression, rooted in a lack of self love, further exploited to make money! [ROOT, SACRAL, SOLAR PLEXUS AND HEART IMBALANCE] Oh yesss the money. I am a beacon of lust, and it pays. Uh OH! wielding power like that one must be careful not to became a cash cow for slaughter [OOPS]! Layers of acting built up to the point of me feeling like I had lost myself entirely and was unsure of what was me and what was just a performance to please others' expectations of me. Now look. I felt pleasure in so much of my content! I find them irresistible! I treat the creation of my clips with much care and love. I muse at all the love sent through the web and buckets of cum milked in my name. I love the art, and I love seeing the impact of it on erotic appreciators. However, I disregarded my to such a degree that I became disconnected from values. There are moments indeed in which I see the use of my body as self harm. To be truthful, the TRAUMA BODY I walk out of this with is still holding that pain. I am reconciling with my relationship with self intimacy and connection to others. I took time off to see these things… then more time passed for the knowledge to settle into my bones. My, and once it did—- I was overcome with greif. I died. and I mourned. Is that relatable? Maybe that’s just the world we live in, sadly. Amazingly though, we can make it better everyday simply by being honest about our experiences and sharing <3 So you see, I recently became acutely aware of a base of resentment towards OUR backstory. You and I, dear reader/viewer/COOMER. How I love your gaze and reception of my creations. How sad it is that I built up major resistance towards connecting with you. I long to connect and understand you- and u me! I envision us enjoying a community of curated content that embraces porn with wisdom ehehehe. The connection I crave deeply. You see this was a deeply isolating experience, like I constructed myself a cage. As though I was trapped in the TOWER [arcana 16] [A HUGE PHALLUS], like the dragons I was slaying were actually toying with my body in their dungeons, all at the whim of the DEVIL and his puppet strings [arcana 15, the lovers in chains]. A relationship is a dance between the rhythms bounced between two people. What p.aralyzed me for some time was the knowing that I created the reality that I suffered within. The darkness of my own subconcious perpetuated the circumstances that k.illed my soul. This frightened me. I had done that to myself. I had neglected my education, my friends, family, my personal interests, my S E L F. I did so to possess my lover. As equally as they used me for security, I used them. I overnurtured them for control. Shadow play of the feminine and masculine. Control through soft comfort, Coercion through necessity of connection. It was a solo experience at a rave in which I observed people and their unhealthy attachment to one another I finally cut the cord and broke it off. I felt like I was wearing a mask all the time. Like I hadn’t seen my own face for so long I forgot who was behind it. Releasing myself from that spiritual bind was like a soul contract burning up in FLAMES. It was like breathing fucking air after coming out of a HERMETICALLY SEALED CHAMBER. Like waking up from 6 feet under and cutting through the fog of a haunted cemetary- I saw myself and slices of the world around me. So began processing all the programs built up over those years in a fuller sense. It brought me a perspective that I now wish to share... I know that our deepest wounds carry the equal ability to lift us and others. So, that’s the new direction. I’m to embark on my healing journey of sensuality and creation. This looks like reacquainting myself with sex, fetish, and personal passion. This will happen here, and you will get to watch<3. I plan to explore different activities and fetishes. dance, lewds, shibari, foot stuff, baths of water and sound. guest appearances from local MILFs. anyway I am so grateful to have foundations of a team and true connections with me now. Thanks for being here anytime you've found yourself in my lair, I feel much love from the appreciation of my work. May we dance with desire to rhythms that clarify and cure. Luv yu’s!<3
2023-08-22 10:52:03 +0000 UTC View PostTHE AUCTION! ~more info tmr~ to be held aug 21-28 twitter @b..
THE AUCTION! ~more info tmr~ to be held aug 21-28 twitter @bds_mgt
2023-08-18 08:18:33 +0000 UTC View Postthis will all make sense at some point 🤲🏻⛲️🧩🩸 Reawakening my..
this will all make sense at some point 🤲🏻⛲️🧩🩸 Reawakening my own relationship to self pleasure. Been here there and all afuckin bouts as of late. Now it’s the part where I get to just be with me and document the journey to finding a sustainable nut. Haha comon let’s go! Here is me being a tad silly and stoking the flame to start.
2023-06-19 08:40:41 +0000 UTC View Postgod called me on the podia line and told me that you’re whol..
god called me on the podia line and told me that you’re whole and always have been <333
2023-06-15 00:39:28 +0000 UTC View Post;~) from some time ago. cum on my tummy.
;~) from some time ago. cum on my tummy.
2023-06-12 09:08:59 +0000 UTC View PostI was rly into this one boob out look last night in my delin..
I was rly into this one boob out look last night in my delinquent fit
2023-06-09 09:07:40 +0000 UTC View Postshe rides on, hungry for moreee
she rides on, hungry for moreee
2023-06-07 18:20:57 +0000 UTC View PostRecently: packing for a trip. Finally got my fucking focusri..
Recently: packing for a trip. Finally got my fucking focusriiite
2023-06-07 18:15:50 +0000 UTC View Postim just gonna leave this casual INSANEO STYLE pussy and ass ..
im just gonna leave this casual INSANEO STYLE pussy and ass tentacle fucking clip. its 18 mins long. the actual fucking starts around 8 min and tbh most of the clip is just simply fucking around. this is super impromptu and lacking flow as it's unedited, but its a fun playtime~ consider this an act of to taking some of the pressure off.
2023-03-31 04:21:58 +0000 UTC View Postbusy week being a school.girl. Now that the weekends here I ..
busy week being a school.girl. Now that the weekends here I can devote myself to pleasure~ and be a sluttttt 🖤💗🖤🥚🖤💗🖤🥚💗💗🥚 filming underway!
2023-03-25 02:04:23 +0000 UTC View Post4 min Quickie to enjoy on your Monday~~~ Creamy pussy dildo ..
4 min Quickie to enjoy on your Monday~~~ Creamy pussy dildo ride gone insaneo style, bouncing my ass and covering my titties with cum until I finish myself off and squirt💧☁️ ≈exam season has me thinking, I’d like to get real good at filming on the fly when suddenly I’m super horny. Lighting nailed in every room! A tripod always handy. Ahhhhnnnn I could even have a public kit to carry heh.
2023-03-20 06:34:03 +0000 UTC View Post~~~ not Smut ~~~ Rolling a fat joint inspired me to reflect..
~~~ not Smut ~~~ Rolling a fat joint inspired me to reflect on this un.conscious behavior I sometimes lean into to dampen my erotic effect in day to day interactions.
2023-03-19 07:09:45 +0000 UTC View PostRope play🪢I love the way my hips are framed by this harness<..
Rope play🪢I love the way my hips are framed by this harness<333 My bound body drives you wild, it’s slutty~easy access~ but did u really have to cum all over my tits right as I began untying myself? You’re such a pervert. Jacking off on me and making a messsss. Hm well, I think it’s time for you to cream in my pussy… Oo! A voice message
2023-03-19 06:16:18 +0000 UTC View PostStretching and getting my ass ready to film fr the other nig..
Stretching and getting my ass ready to film fr the other night. Testing cute lil angles and ideas to pursue further tonight! Filling my asshole and letting it grip thick dildos is a great way to reduce stress during exams ✅
2023-03-18 18:57:37 +0000 UTC View Postwow, I may begin posting some of my full videos as purchasab..
wow, I may begin posting some of my full videos as purchasable messages here because why the fuck not. watch out for that if ur interested later this week, once i uncover the files from my drive ill upload.
2023-03-13 06:07:18 +0000 UTC View PostTied up and hooded. Are you ready to fill this slut up with ..
Tied up and hooded. Are you ready to fill this slut up with your desire~?
2023-03-13 04:51:34 +0000 UTC View PostShibari progress! A hishi karada 💠 diamond tie
Shibari progress! A hishi karada 💠 diamond tie
2023-03-11 10:15:33 +0000 UTC View PostI tied myself up in shibari and lost myself in the pleasure ..
I tied myself up in shibari and lost myself in the pleasure of my pussy gripping a thick dildo, riding hard, for your throbbing cock. It feels good to finally give you a little taste of what you’ve been yearning for.
2023-03-08 10:22:13 +0000 UTC View PostWorship my ass with your eyes, I fill your thoughts, tribute..
Worship my ass with your eyes, I fill your thoughts, tribute to me while stroking your cock. My holes own you <333
2023-03-01 06:16:38 +0000 UTC View PostFondle me in the hot tub, own me with your cock and fuck me ..
Fondle me in the hot tub, own me with your cock and fuck me till I squirt. //// also POV: u missed me so much ur experiencing fever dreams in which u are my dog and I spit on you. ~~~~~~the duality of dirty~~~~~~ I just returned from a trip of watering roots. When I’m around family making content feels like walking a tight rope. Ik I was vry quiet for a bit there. back now and ready 2 flexxx <333 love u
2023-03-01 06:15:55 +0000 UTC View PostMy hamster died today 💔💧 With all the love she recieved she’..
My hamster died today 💔💧 With all the love she recieved she’s onto rest with higher trees 🌱 Prayers up for Pogo!!! 🕯️🕯️🕯️Her gentle determination will embrace many lifetimes of adventure onward. 🕊️💚📯 /// NSFW live is postponed ///
2023-02-16 03:13:56 +0000 UTC View PostMy candles are so sexy, you deserve to appreciate them too.
My candles are so sexy, you deserve to appreciate them too.
2023-02-15 05:48:23 +0000 UTC View PostI’ll be celebrating discount chocolate day Feb 15th with a l..
I’ll be celebrating discount chocolate day Feb 15th with a live stream, either on strip chat, many vids or chaturbate ….. is there a preference?
2023-02-15 05:44:09 +0000 UTC View PostHappy Valentine’s Day ~<333 I got wetttt and juiced myself ..
Happy Valentine’s Day ~<333 I got wetttt and juiced myself in a bath. Feeling soft and succulent Here’s to enjoying the romance of self care everyyyday.
2023-02-15 05:43:37 +0000 UTC View PostRecently! Feeling lush, so sensual, juicy. Busy to learning ..
Recently! Feeling lush, so sensual, juicy. Busy to learning the intricacies of ancient fungi in class. Also! My stream set up is running at last he he, he he he~ Watch out forNSFW AND TWITCH STREAMS, COMING RIGHT UP. (I’ve been using talk to text on my phone since I have acquired these fabulously long nails… It’s pretty fun)
2023-02-08 05:06:59 +0000 UTC View Postyo for those asking: customs are on indefinite hold
yo for those asking: customs are on indefinite hold
2023-02-05 08:58:25 +0000 UTC View Postpussy pics will prime your minds for my juicing
pussy pics will prime your minds for my juicing
2023-02-04 22:38:57 +0000 UTC View PostLONG DIARY POST 🌱🕊💖 Long post addressing recent history, fo..
LONG DIARY POST 🌱🕊💖 Long post addressing recent history, for those interested in the workings of my mind: So if you’ve followed me perhaps you’re aware of my previous absence. Last year i made a plan to return to posting after an extended absence and I did for a bit. This was to much rejoice! [thank you everyone for your warmth in welcoming me.] However, quickly I found myself in a familiar pattern again. I chose to honor myself, my desires and my vision. And to me, this meant I needed to step away and deeply reflect to gain true clarity about my intentions. { U see, my year tarot card of 2022 was the Hermit, and I took that to HEART. I wonder what yours are~~~} As a sex worker, the desires of others is intimately linked to the job. We are set alight with the passion of our audience, and what a beautiful thing it is to handle the flame of another, adding fuel to the fire and watching it burn brighter <3 It’s also a fine line to walk, and if you lose your center of gravity and fall, you get burned! For one that has not devoted any space to listening within, it can become tempting to let demand be the driver. Ah and then suddenly you find yourself acting as your own slave driver [this happened to me]. This is the self abandonment track. Getting so high off validation that the desires of others take precedent over your own. Maybe you’ve experienced something like this in your own life- many human systems tend to feed off of this exploitation, often unknowingly. This act, for me was like a crime against my own creativity. My relationship to my truest self suffered, and I sought to escape the illusion that resulted. Fear, obligation, and guilt. They wrap around the heart, the minds eye, and the desire center like a FOG. The further I resisted listening to my heart, and instead listened to the small voice of fear that urged me to do whatever it took to be loved… the further I fell from the empowered place in which I belong. Once I got a hunch of me leaning into these patterns +++ compounded with changes in life that required my devoted attention, I went MIA! Mistakes were made, things were handled poorly. Like, I had just set up a tier on a sub site for streams… I went live once then lost the footage lol. Costs accrued and experience gained. I’m sorry everyone. I’ll attempt to be generous in dealing with any fallout from my errors. From here I will take things one step at a time. As opposed to announcing a myriad of things I’ve planned, I’m just going to post as things happen, and attempt to form a more honest relationship with you all. I’m learning how 2 ask for help too ! Always with the utmost priority of honoring my self. I am grateful to be here now. The self that I have sculpted through time, pressure, pain and pleasure is my ideal now. To create in alignment with mutual harmony, integrity, and love is what I strive to do. May the community that we build be engaging with the forces of good always. <333 Happy to say I’ve learned to hold my lantern 🏮
2023-02-01 02:29:07 +0000 UTC View Post𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕳𝖊𝖗𝖒𝖎𝖙 The 9th major ASSCANA of the tarot. The light bea..
𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝕳𝖊𝖗𝖒𝖎𝖙 The 9th major ASSCANA of the tarot. The light bearer that provides guidance to inner realms. Master of contemplative space, the figure marks a state of cyclical completion. The sacred solitude that has one born anew. The greatest thing in the world is to know how to belong to oneself.” ― Michel de Montaigne
2023-02-01 00:04:47 +0000 UTC View Post