unlock for $3 to upwrap me like a present <3 Unwrapping this story as well...Why did I stay sober? Honestly I just decided to bend over and let “the man” have his way with me… at least that’s how I felt in early sobriety. I was “f0rced” to get sober through the court system. I pleaded with a deferral which required me to admit my alcoholism and claim to battle the root of my problems by getting sober and going to treatment. This was in 2012!
Even after all I had lost... my job, my car, my relationship, my cat... my house my sanity... STILL I did not admit I had a problem. It was only when the second DUI started to catch up to me, I finally had to go to court and was ordered not to drink or do drugs, to go to AA and a state behavioral health program for 2 years. The first couple months of being in that program, I was not committed to sobriety at all, I planned to drink as soon as the phase of state mandated classes went from three times a week down to one… but something changed within me after a little over a month of not drinking.
I began to recognize that all the problems in my life were a result of alcohol. Against all odds, and with a *very* unsupportive new boyfriend, AND while still living in that party environment (in a cheaper living arrangement than the previous house), I remained sober. I was the only one whose name was on the lease at that new party house, so I stayed until the lease was up, about 10 more months. It was really hard...
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The first time I used alcohol as a medication for sadness, it was when I was dumped by someone I was completely in love with at age 19. He had cheated on me in front of all the people at his druggy party apartment when I wasn’t there, after we were dating almost a year. I was so distraught, I had one of my of-age coworkers buy me a red bottle of southern comfort and I drank half of it after getting off work. I bl@cked out in my room and my first roommate found me trashed in there… she was worried about me. I discovered I could numb my pain and anxiety with booze.
I thought I was “getting more experienced in life” by progressing through these stages of alcoholism. I truly thought “this was the way”, that what I was doing was completely normal. My parents drank, and I had seen them int0xicated before. I went a few steps further and also smoked w33d and tried out psychedelics and ecstasy. I even sold dr\/gs out of my first apartment. I felt sooo cool.
Years went by and I lived in complete ignorance, I did not acknowledge alcoholism to be a valid issue. Though I was regularly puking myself and bl@cking out at least once a week, I told myself America’s a free country, and it’s an American tradition to drink and get dr\/nk, and justified my daily drinking. Throwing parties and being the “cool party girl at the party house” became my whole identity. I let it ruin my relationship with Travis back then. I told him he wasn’t manly enough for me. The regretful words that came out of my mouth were painful even to me for years after our split. I eventually lost my job, my car, the house we were renting… and I was busted for a second DUI all within a couple months, during the winter at age 24.
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Before I ever drank, I was addicted to video games. It was the one thing that I could do with my new step-brothers that made me feel accepted by them. They were “cool” and knew normal stuff about the outside world that my sisters and I were completely sheltered from.
Before video games… I was just a totally sheltered pre-t33n with no social skills or fashion sense. I was made fun of in school (private christian school at that…) for being overly obsessed with cats. I had a couple friends in m!ddle sch00l who were nerdy too, which was nice. But after the 8th grade, I couldn’t stand the strictness of the christian school, so I transferred to public… where I was completely outcast. I ate lunch alone and made ZERO new friends there.
I discovered alcohol when I was 15. When I got dr\/nk, my nervousness to speak disappeared. People talked to me, and I responded with liquid confidence. I was no longer outcast or crippled by shyness or insecurity. Euphoria filled me and I felt I could connect with people “out in the real world” finally.
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Alcoholism has been a major struggle for me. I sometimes cringe about the kind of person I was before while in active addiction. I had talked shit to people who didn’t drink alcohol while at my party house. I would make fun of them to their face and try to peer pressure them into drinking with us.
Looking back, I am disgusted by myself. I thought I was sooo cool too.
I *thought* I was a very social, loved person in my community... While a handful of people I lived with and some people who frequently visited I do consider friends to this day, about 90% of the visitors we had and a few of my old roommates disappeared from my life over time after I had to quit drinking.
I have a blog post up now that includes photos of me during this time of my life, but I cant share them on OF because the other people in the photos are not "verified OF creators" of course... my blog is at www.kristyjessica.com/about if you wanna see!
Anyway... I have experienced more closeness with my connections online when I have opened up about my struggles with alcohol. Have you struggled with it drinking? I hope my engagement with you here provides some joy to your life <3
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"Manipulative" Story Ending: *Fast forward one month into the future.*
Another sunny day in San Diego, the two of us had walked down to the waterfront to m33t up with another one of his friends, they were going to go surfing. I hadn’t met his friend before. “Cool so what do you guys do out here?” His friend casually maintained the conversation, beyond the nice weather we were having.
“Oh you know, just livin’ life bro, got my hot model girlfriend here, ya know what’I’m say’n?” He gestured towards me, in my little pink bikini.
“Oh yeah? Modelin’ huh?” His friend looked me up and down for a moment. I smiled, with sunglasses on, he couldn’t see my eyes.
“She was just on Playboy TV!” My *at the time* boyfriend boasted. I was a little perplexed, because he had recently exclaimed how much he was ashamed of my Playboy TV feature.
“Sweet!” His friend gave him a high five. “Let’s catch some waves!”
I wasn’t surfing, so I just chilled alone on my beach towel. Catching those San Diego sun rays that everyone seemed to be so addicted to. I wanted to go home.
Thanks for reading!
*Kristy Jessica
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"Manipulative" Part 3: (ps unlock for pussy hehe) I moved away from all my friends and family to be near this man in Southern California, and I was trying to make it as a nude glamour model. I couldn’t believe he was accusing me of ‘disrespecting’ him. Somehow I magically mustered the confidence to properly stick up for myself. “Remember a few months ago when I told you I got that inquiry for Playboy Selfies TV and they asked me to submit cell phone videos and selfies? And I thought it was probably a scam but I submitted anyway? That’s what this was! Playboy doesn’t do pornographic content-“
“Respectfully” he interrupted me again, “You were looking into the camera and saying stuff like ‘does my pussy look tight to you’? You don’t call that pornographic?”
I understood a little why he was being so judgmental, but he already knew about and had seen my open leg modeling and erotic content across the internet for years, since we first started dating. “It’s CONTENT.” I stated. “For Playboy! You should be proud of me!” He just stared with motionless eyes at me. I tried to stare back, but relented and moved my gaze to the somewhat more peaceful flickering yellow light on the corners of the clear water glasses.
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“I can see right through your bullshit, Kristy! I don’t have the time or patience for this right now. We’ll talk about it when you come over for dinner. You’re not going to back out of our dinner plans now are you?”
“…No…” I sheepishly responded. Not wanting to make him more upset. He hung up.
*A few hours later, at his house*
Tungsten tone light reflected off the corners of the clear water glasses, four ice cubes for him, no ice cubes for me. In an attempt not to appear nervous or confrontational, I just stared at the flickering light on the those glasses. Moments went by as I hungrily awaited the food he was setting up at our table. “So my old college buddy Jimmy from San Diego State gave me an alarming call today.” He matter of factly stated, as if he were reciting some doomsday declaration. “Said he was having’ a good ole’ time whacking off, as single bachelor dudes like Jimmy do, when suddenly you came onto the screen and he recognized you as MY girl, so like the good friend Jimmy is, he gave me a call to let me know about it. Do you know how embarrassing this is?”
“It was on Playboy TV” I attempted to reply in confidence, but felt my body shift backwards and shrink back a tiny bit.
“I don’t give a shit if it was on tin-buck-two TV!” His quick witted words always stamped me out. “I just don’t wanna get that call that my girl is messing around behind my back!”
...to be continued...
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Storytime PART 1! A manipulative relationship: “Kristy, tell me the TRUTH… I can tell if you’re bullshitting me!” It was a sunny Monday afternoon in San Diego, and I was running errands before rush hour. It’s pretty cool being able to make my own schedule around traffic patterns, as a freelancer. I never kept secrets from my boyfriend, but I was concerned that he felt the need to challenge me like this over the phone suddenly.
“Um… what’s up?” I responded, perplexed.
“My buddy Jimmy just called me because he saw you doing erotic shit on TV, on some Playboy channel!”
“Oh yeah!” I started to remind him, but was -per usual- cut short.
“I can’t believe it! Every woman I ever date always disrespects me eventually! So what are you doing on there? HUH?! Some masturbation with toys that you’re not telling me about?!” His tone was very cruel and loud. I had told him months prior that I was contacted by Playboy to model for their “Playboy Selfies” TV series.
At the time, I thought it was a scam since they asked me to send in cell phone videos and selfies, but the check was sent to me later, and apparently it was published and in rotation! I was a little surprised that Playboy TV didn’t notify me of when I would be aired, and a bit disheartened that my significant other (at the time, not my current relationship) seemed to be upset about it.
...to be continued... ;)
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The hours of the night blurred together like that, blissful cuddling heaven. At one point, he reached his large hand down and cupped my vulva softly, like a peaceful sensual hug. For a split second I was worried things might be moving too fast. But his tenderness comforted me, and we laid like that until we fell asleep together for the first time in 8 years, in the back of my van.
We cuddled for the first time after 8 years of being broken up.... "Wait! pull over here... let's look at the city over the bay..." Travis requested. Confused, I pulled over instead of just taking him home like usual....
“Yea, sometimes I walk down here just to look at it, a lot of people who live here never take the time…”
We sat in silence, admiring the Seattle skyline at night. I low-key didn’t want that moment to end, as that tightness in my chest would return shortly after I would drop him off….
“Wanna lay in the back?” He asked.
“Yes… let’s “ I smiled awkwardly. Pleased at the idea of connecting.
We laid next to each other on our backs, on top of the blankets, fully clothed… talking for a long time, I could talk about anything forever with him… eventually we laid on our sides facing each other.
I wondered where this was going… but I felt safe. We scooted closer together, until our legs were wrapped around each other.
“Want to be the little spoon?” Travis asked
“Yea, sometimes I walk down here just to look at it, a lot of people who live here never take the time…”
We sat in silence, admiring the Seattle skyline at night. I low-key didn’t want that moment to end, as that tightness in my chest would return shortly after I would drop him off….
“Wanna lay in the back?” He asked.
“Yes… let’s “ I smiled awkwardly. Pleased at the idea of connecting.
We laid next to each other on our backs, on top of the blankets, fully clothed… talking for a long time, I could talk about anything forever with him… eventually we laid on our sides facing each other.
I wondered where this was going… but I felt safe. We scooted closer together, until our legs were wrapped around each other.
“Want to be the little spoon?” Travis asked
The naughtiness that happened AFTER the nude photo shoot was actually documented this time!! The sun had just set and @traviswolfecreative and I were so horny for each other. We were just about to pack up and leave, but he wanted just a little more!! So I stayed naked and we made extra spicy content on the top of the big truck!!
My first boyfriend and I had a very erotic relationship. I was so horny for him! We would even have phone sex and masturbate when we couldn’t be together in person. I was so open with him. But one day he asked me if it felt better when he rubbed my clit versus penetrating me... I told the truth and said clit rubbing. He got REALLY upset with me. Now don't get me wrong, I love a good thumping penetration! But please mind the clit!!! That first relationship made it really hard for me to truly say what makes me feel good with sex. I am lucky now to have a really positive sex life with Travis <3
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Some say 'girls just like to date assholes', but in my experience that "love" is always conditional and becomes toxic quickly. I like the guy with a tender heart, with enough balls to admit when he's wrong, and who will cuddle me into the wee hours of the night (and fuck like animals!)
