I left right after cam the uber driver told me to wear a mask bwahah BUT I WANT TO SAY i fucking love the shit out ofnu gauz abd had a blastt blast on cam and everyone new tharsbscribed is getting a super dope message with yummy shit tmrw when i get home mwahaha 😈😈😈😈🤖🙆♀️😬😬😬🖤🖤🖤😻😻😻😻
SOOOOOO I just found my medical records online of the CT scan when i was just in the hospital, its alot of big words ill copy and paste it, but its pretty serious. :/ had a phone appt today with a super incompetent GI doc that basically told me that shes referring me to a diff doctor thats only taking emergencies atm. and mine "isnt an emergency" SO, mit made me super sad and upset as fuck and i did a thing and bought some shit online lol everything in the pic! IM SO STOKED but...should be saving, BUT its coming tomorrow and imma do a huge photoset with all of it, so if you tip $10 or more youll get a folder sent to your inbox of the sets <3 xoxoxo
This is the CT scan overview:
"Pancreas demonstrates numerous parenchymal and intraductal calcification with dilated pancreatic duct encircling the second portion of duodenum, suggestive of annular pancreas. In addition, there is new intraductal stone in the pancreatic head on series 2 image 55 measuring 4 mm in size which has resulted in upstream pancreatic ductal dilatation. There is also new lesion of hypodensity involving the anterior pancreatic head seen on series 2 image 57 measuring 2.4 x 1.2 cm in size. There is also peripancreatic fluid that extends into the right anterior pararenal space. There is also hazy appearance of the root of mesentery with multiple subcentimeter mesenteric lymph nodes."
I hate it its so scary :'( tips and well wishes are super appreciated, i love u guys to da moon n back <3
FYI If it looks like theres not much content on here it is because I set my posts to expire within 30 days (or less).
SOOOO this is why I have Whole folder packages! each are WELL over 1gb and have unseen posts that I never put on here as well :D full res no watermark.
December: $25
January: $20
February: $20
If you want all three just sent a $50 tip! if you have 1 and want just two, lemme know and it'll be only $30
If there a specific month you want and only that month send me a dm with the amount and I will get you the folder :>
I cant wait to be out of the hospital, they figured out I have stones inside my pancreas which isnt good at all :'( So making content will be hard fer a bit but these essss why i got dees deeaaalsss right now <3 <3
I NEED TO PAINT TOO AHHHH omg im dying haha Last post mentioned how to get me an egift card, u can also get any of my monthly expired folders if you do that as well <3 that would be the best hospital release gifts ever, being able to go pick out new painting supplies n such <3
I plan on making some kind os weird shoot in here while im able and capable haha had jesse drop off my cam, EVERYTHING IS SHUT DOWN even visitors so im like all alone in this rn :'(
OOF! And I cant quite rememeber who asked about the Dick Blick E Gift cards if you guy wanted to help out with canvases and paint, the two things i ALWAYZ need
https://www.dickblick.com/products/blick-gift-cards/
my email you plug in is kota.morgue for whtatever amount <3 when I get out of the hospital I am going to immediately start painting again and we have our living room half set up so i wanna get my art room together and just ugh. i miss it so much <3 pleas lemme know if anyone does get an ecard for me, we can talk bout me making you something painting/painting my body...etx ;)
EEEEEP! SO I made dis video...
so sorry fer like ramblin haha <3 I am just SO excited to share with u guys this new form of art that i just got into, and my very first weird piece I made
I made this wishlist fer things like ill always be in need of, lemme know if u get anything off of it and ill send u all the kisses/noods/possibly art whatever u desire because it just is gonna mean so fuckin much to me :D
https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/HBI1KOSI1XLM?ref_=wl_share
Im trying to edit shit for u guys and i literally cant even get past like 2 cuts because it just freezes on me its so upsetting i need like a real computer so bad 😭😓 i use my roommates if i ever edit now and i just dont wanna do that anymore ahhh
So im gonna just put it back on my phone and do a version for u guys thats less complex even tho it just fucking pains me because thats how i express myself creatively lol
BUT FUCK HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aahhhhhhh!!! So im srry i havent posted as much last few dayz, mainly like 99% of my time had been devoted to making my sanctuary
ive never put so much love n hard work into anthing in my life and u guys are a huge part of why. You gave me the opportunity to do this and im so stoked cuz its gunna be where most my content will be made/where i cam eeee🙀🖤🖤🖤 heres one view but i still got lots more work to go 🤯🤯🤯 im so sore 😆😆😆
FIRST POST! Im so excited.
I have been sitting on the idea of making one of these for about a year now, but with how INSANE and hectic and unpredictable my life was I decided it would be best to wait until I am alot more stable emotionally and mentally!
I am going to make this a VERY personal blog, a look into my daily life n such. Anything from me juicing, music I found that I enjoy, weird shit im doin, weird videos im editin, and like ofc the dirty smut shit hehe :D
I also want this to be a safe haven for all my peeps to come n interact with me/one another. You guys mean an infinite amount to me and i cherish the dope times we always seem to have together, so now u get to see like ALL OV ME. <3
Took these pix after a badass night on cam with everyone! all posts will expire after 30 days but ill be saving everything n you will be able to purchase a folder of each month xoxoxo