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Someone sent me this dildo ❤️ I love you 😍 At first when I was rubbing it around my labia I thought this is not gunna go well, this thing feels huge, but it felt so fucking good inside of me 😊

Today was the first morning in a long time I woke up and had to make an anal video. I was dreaming about someone fucking me in the ass all night. I feel amazing, my place is getting cleaner each day, life more organized and confidence slowly creeping back. I LOVE FOOD I owe it all to food I used to have a really bad relationship with food, well bad relationships all around but I feel like I’m getting the hang of things now. I use food to motivate me, reward me and to have something to look forward to What’s your favourite food :)? Also enjoy this anal video I made for you :* I’m staying a little fuzzy for a couple of days then I’m shaving ☺️

It’s been a long time since I shaved 🐻

I’ve been streaming on twitch, hanging out with my dad and sleeping lots I miss you guys tho and I promise I’m not never going to make nsfw content again I just needed this to clear my head I keep saying I’m going to come back soon and I promise I will, just trying to make sure I want to come back and I’m not forcing myself for any reason I’ll be live tonight on twitch if you wanna hang and catch up If you’re horny and need a distraction my old stuff will have to do until I can come up with some new stuff The only thing that matters in this life is that you’re happy, and I know I haven’t been probing much of that to you guys lately But I’m happy today and I wanted you to see, and if you’re happy about something I wanna hear about it :)

Hello, I’m so sorry for being gone for so long and not explaining myself. Kind of embarrassing because my last post was about potentially posting every day Big wiff 😣 I was really excited to make content with that girl, in fact I arrived at the train station ready to go an entire day early 😝 I also shaved a day early so the next day I was covered in razor bumps and the anxiety I already had just made me cancel because I didn’t wanna make content with razor bumps or show up and meet someone with them and then go oh hey I have herpes (she already knew ahead but still i hope you can understand) After that a few weeks ago I had someone who follows me show up to the place I live. First of all I’m okay, and there’s cameras and security in my building. But he showed up 4 times in one day, on camera. He buzzed me twice and when I answered the last time he asked me to meet him for dinner. I know I haven’t been the best at hiding my privacy, it’s something I regret a lot and I know I’m partly to blame for that incident. But I hope you guys understand how that’s very scary for someone to experience. My home is my safe place, and I promise to do better at protecting my privacy. But it’s my place to call home and if I wanted you to be here I would ask you to. But I also know it’s my fault, no one is to blame here but me. I didn’t wanna leave the house or do anything for a while, I’ve been feeling at rock bottom but I thought I was going to come back to a lot of angry messages, messages about me not posting enough, being a bad person and letting people down. And I didn’t have a single one The only messages I have are from people who wanna make sure I’m doing okay, who wanna see how I’m doing. I just wanna say thank you so fuckingg much. You guys have no idea how those messages make me feel. Sometimes its hard for me to find any value in myself and reading those messages made me feel so loved. I m trying to get better at taking care of myself and giving myself that love you all give me. I love you all so much <3

Update hiii After a few weeks of trying to get my brain to stop thinking the worst about everything I’m starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel I’m really sorry for not posting like I said I would, holiday times bring back a lot of hard memories for people to deal with me included and I think they hit me harder than I thought this year. I usually fall back into depression around Christmas but I’m hoping that cleaning my place, and working on content will help keep it away I didn’t end up making content with that girl and every guy I talk to about making content sounds like a kid going to the candy shop for the first time “idk if that makes sense” Like I’ll match with guys on dating sites and they wanna know if I wanna see photos of their dick, what my kinks are, and those conversations are more of a turn off for me now because I just wanna have a normal conversation getting to know someone Just because I make porn doesn’t mean I breath eat sleep porn making :) it’s not the only thing I wanna talk about and when I’m getting to know someone I wanna know them not their dick But I’ve had no luck where I live meeting up with people and the thought of trying to is starting to give me anxiety cause something always goes wrong Right now I’m really excited for new world. When I first started posting I was so excited to share everything with you guys I think deep down I thought sharing everything about myself would attract someone to me so I wouldn’t be alone but I guess that plan backfired hard I hope I’m excited to make content and stuff but right now it’s hard for my brain to feel confident when I’m always alone and that’s something I can’t change or at least don’t have energy to keep trying to right now The things that help me feel better each day is hearing my friends voices online when we play that makes me feel surrounded by people, I love it when we’re having fun cause I’m done with stress and angry people It cut off the rest of my message but I just wanted you to know I hope you’re doi

Playing with myself with my curtains open 😊

The thought of making content with someone again has given me so much anxiety over the past little bit, but anxiety is okay and it’s not a permanent feeling or a deciding emotion for what you can or can’t do in life ❤️ Feeling anxious is okay but missing out on things you’ve always wanted to try because if it isn’t :)

Fall is such a lovely time of year The days are getting shorter The nights are getting colder and when I sleep I dream about holding you ❤️

Bury your face here 😌

If you think I should start posting every day again like this ;) Also should I stay hairy a bit for the fuzzy lovers or shave?

A little dirty anal vid for my loves ❤️

:3 Also wanted to say for anyone else who doesn’t have insurance and wants to go get their teeth looked at, it was 150$ for the first checkup, and they gave me an estimate for the cleaning and filling and it was around 550$ :) idk how much it will cost to possible get the gun trimmed tho he said it has to be small enough, that appointment is on the 15th tho and if I make content with that girl it’ll be on the 21st :)

Good morning 😘

Fall is here :o How are you?

Mornings in bed with me >

First JOI I’ve made in a long time ;) Did you make it till the end?

Double stuffed panty vid :3

Thank you Torin for the lovely dress 🥰 My outfit for today

Let’s make a baby 😌

Waking up next to you is my favourite 😊

I feel bad for not posting as much this month so here’s a free anal vid that came out slightly dirty at the end, the beginning is normal tho 😘

Me in a skirt 😊 🐷

Imagine I was your wake up call

I have so many new freckles to show you . Can you count them? Cleaned my room yesterday It’s been so hot in Ontario I’ve been trying not to die since my ac broke lol Luckily I have a friend who’s place I can stay at during the day but I haven’t been able to make a whole lot of content because of it Today tho I woke up and I felt really motivated for the first time in a while :) I hope it stays Cleaning, waking up and showering, making myself breakfast everyday are what bring back my happiness and motivation :3 I hope you have a lovely day

I finally shaved for you

From my day at the lake a few days ago

Hey guys, I’m really sorry for my lack of posting. I haven’t had any motivation to do anything really lately and I’ve just been chillen waiting for it to come back. I should be back soon but my place is a mess, my brain feels like no one loves me and no one ever will. I deleted my Instagram cause I’m tired of none of the guys I meet in real life taking me seriously. Everyone thinks I just wanna fuck. I’ve spent so much time trying to learn how to be alone and every night I’m in bed by myself it just feels like it’s getting worse instead of better. I feel like the cottage was a big mistake cause I got to experience a lot of stuff I didn’t have but once again the dude was only interested in getting laid for a night. None of the people I meet want to start anything real with me and it doesn’t matter if I get a new job they’ll always hate me for having nudes online and I just feel like I’ve fucked up my life and I’m gunna be alone forever. I know a lot of you will try to convince me you know I’m gunna find someone and be happy but at this point those people just annoy me cause I feel like no one’s listening to how much I’m trying and how literally no one wants to try with me

Answering messages once I get to the lake today but I finally filmed a new anal vid that came out a tiny bit dirty at the end, way less than my last vid if that was too much for you :) Tip this post 5$ if you want the vid, it’s pretty hot if you ask me ☺️