Added 2025-02-13 01:53:41 +0000 UTC
I wanted to share a little more about what happened in that post. so, the anxiety didn’t just come out of nowhere. I sent a video to my friend, and he told me I looked “chubby” in it……in reality, he meant that the contrast between my waist and hips (which I emphasized on purpose with my outfit) made it seem that way. but the way he said it……oof. it hit me hard, and I felt really sad :c we talked for a long time, and I know now that he didn’t mean to upset me. but I reacted emotionally — I cried, my makeup got ruined, and I even took a picture of how it looked on my face. I’ll show you. honestly, the tears kinda worked for the aesthetic, but my mood was too low to finish the nude part of the shoot. I usually don’t like forcing myself to work. I try to create content when I want to, when I have energy and feel good about it. if my energy is low, I’d rather not create at all than put negativity into my work. so yeah, I was really upset. honestly, I’d love to hear some kind words from you right now because I still feel a bit insecure about my body💔 #fyp #anime #goth #alt #tiktok #alternative #freevideo #freak #clown #clowngirl
