Thought I was y0ung and had nothing to worry about yet and s..
Added 2023-10-04 18:12:43 +0000 UTCThought I was y0ung and had nothing to worry about yet and so it would be easy... Just another life will start and the old one will be a warm memory. But no. It's really hard. Because of the constant stress everything around me looks, hears and smells different, it's like I'm in some other world, very similar to what I'm used to, but there is some inconsistency in every detail.... I don't know how long this state will last, but I need to hold on, which is not globally difficult, I just need to get through this period😅 I hope that at the end of the emotional shaking I will reboot and I will have new strength and free breathing, because besides the heart there is the rest of the body that needs to be provided with warmth, food and comfort😊 I can't imagine what I will have to go through to do all the everyday things myself after all these years. How much less time and energy I will have left for the things I enjoy. But it can't be helped. I'll have to get through it. And as sad as it is, I won't hide the fact that in those rare moments when I don't think about the past, I'm damn curious about the future. And I'm very glad that I have you, I have someone to share this with, and it's only thanks to you that I don't fall into desperate loneliness. In the meantime, here's a look at 3 major sources of experiences and feelings unrelated to other people that make me not feel total hopelessness. These are, of course, the cat, places to eat, and the gym🥰 Love you!😘😘😘
