dear diary... (XBIZ edition! 🎉 part 2) so the next day was ..

dear diary... (XBIZ edition! 🎉 part 2) so the next day was all about the awards 🥳 we still managed to explore Amsterdam some more during the day. we smoked a large amount of 🍃 and went to this interactive light show thingy... it was trippy. we also queued over 40 minutes to buy a single cookie. I think that shows how 😵‍💫 we were. at around 5PM, we started getting ready for the awards. Josh got into his suit and I got into my favourite dress. I'm not sure how I imagined porn awards would be (this was our first time at one)… but it was so much more extravagant and “professional” than I thought it'd be! there were cameras, press, a red carpet, and I felt special because I got to go in a separate, exclusive entrance because I was nominated 💁🏼‍♀️ we walked the red carpet, had photos taken of us, then got pulled aside to do a little interview! we bumped into lots of people we knew, took loads of selfies, and had a lot of champagne 🥂 we were almost late going into the actual award ceremony because we were chatting/flirting so much. when we eventually got in, we found some people we knew (who were actually from the UK, which was cool, it's rare that we run into British people now that we live in Cyprus lol) and sat down with them. the awards themselves were very similar to things like the Golden Globes, but with more nudity and sexual innuendos. different hosts would walk on stage to present an award, the winners would be announced and called up, everyone clapped, they did little speeches to say thank you etc etc. our category was done quite early on, which I was relieved by, as it meant I could relax and not think about it anymore 😅 as much fun as it was, after a while it got a little same-y, so we headed to the bar after around 20 mins to get a drink and luckily bumped into a bunch of our new friends. after a while of chatting, drinking & taking half naked photos on the red carpet, we decided to take the party elsewhere. we gathered up a bunch of people and headed to someone's hotel. I quite honestly can't remember who's hotel room it was, but when we got there, someone ordered pizza, so I was happy 🤷🏼‍♀️ then I feel like everyone kinda crashed at once. it must have been around 3AM already by this point and we were all clearly very tired from a messy weekend 😅 Josh & I were slumped on a sofa, and then we all had what can only be described as a "cuddle puddle". and by that I mean around 3 girls piled on top of us, laying across our entire bodies 🤣 I think I almost fell asleep at one point with everyone just laid on top of me lmao I think it's worth noting that at this point on the sofa, Josh was on one side of me and the guy I fancied was on the other side, so I was more than happy to be apart of this cuddle orgy or whatever the hell it was 👀 and I won't lie, I may have been "accidentally" leaning in close to this other guy on purpose, to the point where he was basically laying his head on my lap and I was stroking various parts of his body. NO, get your mind out of the gutter, I don't mean it like that. I just mean his hair, or his arm, or his shoulder... the dirty stuff comes a little later 😉 everyone in the room was chatting and joking around, and at one point while Josh was talking to someone, I turned to the other guy and kissed him. only for a couple seconds, but it was enough to turn me the fuck on. especially since it was literally behind Josh's back. a couple more hours went by and as everyone got more tired, people left one by one. honestly I could have fallen asleep at any moment too, but I was secretly hoping that something would happen, so I pushed through 💪🏻 when the last person (other than Josh, the guy I fancied & myself) left, us 3 stayed where we were. I don't think anyone wanted to make the first move. after a while of small talking about how sleepy we were, I had a genius idea. I sat up, sighed and said to Lucky (that’s the guy’s name btw) “alright then we should get going, can I give you a kiss goodbye?" & of course he said yes 💁🏼‍♀️ so I leaned in, kissed him, and well... you can guess the rest. jk of course I'll tell you the details. read part 3 for the rest 😜