Hello everyone! I am writing from the depths of what i thin..
Added 2023-05-21 03:52:15 +0000 UTCHello everyone! I am writing from the depths of what i think is postpartum depression. But we are here. We are okay! Im just stuck with unreliable baby care! Which results in unreliable streaming. And streaming is the only thing i have right now that makes me feel like me... at all. I was just thinking today, how can i give to others (aka you guys) when i dont even have anything left for myself at the end of the day? Ya girl is doing a terrible job of taking care of herself. So today, after my baby fell asleep in the car, i sat in the car and waited. I looked at the nice blue sky and took som deep breaths. Last night after not being able to stream, i got a terrible migraine. And my baby must have felt the vibes cuz it was the worst night weve had in a long time. He woke up almost every hour inconsolable. Just wouldnt stop crying. Im not sure why. Hes fine today. I know some little ones are more difficult then others and tbey just need different things. But wowie. I am doing my best as a mom. And as a human. And i gotta refill my cup! But i need time with you all to refill my damn cup! This week im trying a different combo of vitamins i have. Gonna do a skin care routine every day. And maybe take a walk. Hopefully i will have more of myself to share with you all! Birthday show is still happening!!!!! But ive just fallen a little deeper this past week. Hormones are fucking WACK after you have a small human guys lol what the actual fuck is even happening 🤣 thats how i feel 99.9% of the time! Heres to a better week this coming week. Aka starting tomorrow!
