Quick shower thoughts : This weeks vibe is peace And tryin..

Quick shower thoughts : This weeks vibe is peace And trying to purge Both negative emotions and actual physical shit in my house Ive been emptying so many boxes in my garage and trying to sell shit. Cuz i havent been able to work and just cuz theres always things you dont use everyday too that someone else could find more useful. Lots of baby clothes too, cuz small humans grow FAST lol I just feel like ive held so much anger for not getting help with mom-ing. But this is my path, ya know? Its no one elses. I need to figure out what works for me and my baby. And ive been trying to. This entire time ive been trying to. And ive been adapting to all the ebbs and flows. And all the changes thaf always come too quickly. But ive held so much resentment for how little others lives have changed. Becoming a mom changes EVERY SINGLE THING. i cant think of one thing that is still the same for me, other then my personal feelings for things. But every aspect of my day is different. All the little details of my life have changed and i guess im just bitter it feels pretty "solo" in that regaurd. But there are seasons of life. The time for working and grinding will come again. The time for a clean home will come again. The time for long showers and sleeping in will come again. I will eventually have time to dedicate to a face mask and treating myself to an orgasm lol Being a mother who is needed nearly 24/7 is not permanent. Its temporary. These moments are fleeting. And there will not be a time where i am needed like this by this small human again. Every milestone, every little moment is one and done with him. There are no "do overs" in childhood. So im trying tk be at peace with the changes i was not ready for. To not hold resentment for the chapters i wasnt ready to close. The universe gave me this beautiful tiny soul, that i got to grow and bring here, to add to my life. This is the timeline i am in. And im grateful. No matter the hardships. Heartaches. Difficult parts. All of it. Sometimes life moves so fast that we have to close chapters far before we are ready. And all you can do is embrace the new one. So im doing my best to embrace it this week 🌄 I hope you embrace where you are at. And the timeline your in and the space you are currently filling. All moments are fleeting and things are ever changing. My season of streaming and grinding will return! Just as the leaves come back to the trees in spring. The leaves are never quite the same, but they always return ❤️ So heres a giant cheers to every sharing all the seasons with me. I am here. And i struggle a lot. But im also constantly filled with love too. So im allowing myself to be grateful for that today. (Ps this is just my inner thoughts 🤷‍♀️ i aint going anywhere lol i love you all too much. Just trying to put my chaotic thoughts to words)