Yesterdays outfit of the day. It’s 4 am and I cannot sleep. ..
Added 2021-10-07 11:17:01 +0000 UTCYesterdays outfit of the day.
It’s 4 am and I cannot sleep. My face is throbbing in pain because I spent about a quater of my day yesterday crying like to the point of hyperventilation and now I am lying here with the consequences of putting my body in that much distress lol.
Yesterday morning my parents spoke to me in a way that will forever be ingraved in my brain. I barely even remember what was said afterwords when they were trying to calm me down because of how quickly I lost it lol:
Anyway A lot of old scarred wounds I once thought were healed feel like that have been ripped completely open and I feel 18 again struggling to determine what is real and what is not because the things they were telling me about myself felt completely opposite to how I feel.
With that being said I just want to say it may be a few days or so maybe weeks til I post another outfit of the day while I try to rationalize what just happened because I am not in the mental space to be taking those kinds of photos. Even looking at these pictures right now I do not know what I really look like.
I am just in a very very very vulnerable space right now and I want to cry more but my face already hurts SO bad from doing that all day yesterday. I’m not quite sure how long this will last but I am not saying this to get anyone worried about me lol I have enough of that already.
If I could just get some loving healing vibes sent my way that would mean the world to me ❤️
I’ll do my best to collect myself soon enough to start posting again lol
