"Why did you go into submission and when did this desire fir..
Added 2024-07-16 16:06:19 +0000 UTC"Why did you go into submission and when did this desire first arise?"
I've more or less always had this inclination. I've always been very fascinated by "bad guys" and felt attracted to them. It started with crushes on characters from films, series and books. I also liked being overwhelmed and pinned down in playful brawls. Fighting and losing and always rebelling and fighting was my thing. I was in my element.
I had my first boyfriend when I was 14. He was older than me and he dominated me. In bed and in everyday life. Letting him lead me came completely naturally to me. I had no idea about BDSM back then, but letting him lead me just felt right. He loved me and always went out of his way to protect me and make sure I was okay. I realized that it was nice to be able to relinquish responsibility and decisions and that it helped me to grow personally to engage with him and let him shape me. I came from a parental home that gave me little support and structure. Getting rules from him and being able to turn to him at any time with problems and knowing that he would take care of them gave me a sense of security that I had never known before. I also liked the developmental steps I took with him. I liked the person I was in his presence and under his guidance. And the sex was pretty great. We were super good, harmonizing and always trying new things. And knowing that he carried me on his hands and did everything to make me feel good and happy as long as I was good and obedient was simply intoxicatingly beautiful.
