

Behind The Scenes Date Night Idea: Have a photoshoot night As you know, Mr. Cullen and I love having a date night at home playing with the camera. I love being told what to do. The way he moves my hair or tells me which way to move my body. He loves watching me model for him. Worshipping my body and adoring every part of it. Before OnlyFans, I would just post on reddit. Not for the need of feeling accepted, but to see other women like me modeling and re-training my mind to what I've thought is beauty. Beauty is more that tits, ass, and pussy. Those are sexy, yes! But, a smile, cleavage, curled toes, those can be equally as sexy. Photoshoot night, is something we started after we were done having kids and I felt like I didn't recognize myself in body. I learned about mirror therapy and we thought a photoshoot night would be similar. We usually turn on some music, pour a drink, and get to work. It's never 'work' it's a way of celebrating my natural body and all its capable of. Seeing myself through his eyes. Making myself his center of attention, like when we were first dating. Full Disclosure: we don't always have sex after a photoshoot. Sometimes we cuddle and listen to music or relax and watch a show afterwards. Taking the pressure of sex off helps me to focus on being sensual with him. It's easy to get stuck in my head, overthinking. If we get in the mood for more, great! But if not, we had a great time reconnecting together after spending the day being parents all day. A netflix show that brought this idea on: "Sex, Love Goop" episode 'would you do that?' This entire series, is a really good start for talking about your insecurities with your partner My favorite app for lingerie: https://www.adoreme.com/ I spent a year paying the monthly fee and got a free outfit, bra, panties, or pajamas As a mom, putting myself last is a common denominator. This helped me focus on myself