My birthday is officially in 10 days away heheh <33!! Which ..
Added 2024-09-10 12:06:29 +0000 UTCMy birthday is officially in 10 days away heheh <33!! Which means I’ll be 25 😟…that’s crazy cause i fucked up my life by getting in my very first relationship at 21 with some pos asshole who never cared about me lied and cheated the whole time. I’m still not healed from that 💔… I’m meant to be forever alone i guess :c 😪…anyways, i tried being a mortician, but the program rejected me despite meeting all the requirements and applying in the first day it opened 😟💔…so, now i’m actually trying to transfer to a university like i fr am first gen asf with zero safety net with disabled parents and have never known/understood how to actually navigate this educational system in a way where it works for me :(! But I’m (basically) 25 and not knowing how isn’t an excuse for me anymore, no matter how terrified i feel. Anyways, i hope to have a career in some sector of public health preferably a non profit but if I dream even bigger I can be an epidemiologist or a immunologist if I go to grad school too…im dreaming again and that feels so scary bc i don’t want to disappoint myself or others who care about me…the feelings to end things and hurt myself are like whisper yelling so badly these days and idk why bc I’m trying so hard but in the back of my mind it all feels futile bc idk in the back of my mind I’ll end things some day…okay I’m getting to sad and crying now hahah… don’t I look hot 🥺😭? Please tell me nice things this whole week, i really need some validation and attention hahaha <33…thank you for subscribing to me, i appreciate the lil freedom these funds from pleasing you guys give me <3! Happy Tuesday daddy 💕⭐️ ( Im sorry for the ugly bathroom bg 🥲!)
