Not a horny but kinda sad post. If you’re jerking it, just s..
Added 2024-07-22 16:38:06 +0000 UTCNot a horny but kinda sad post. If you’re jerking it, just scroll. It’s okay, to not read this, I just want to be personal for a minute.
quick little vent: tw: miscarriage, addiction, and ED
feeling my feelings extra hard today. i cut most of my family off recently and mourning those relationships. i have mommy issues and daddy issues. i never had parental guidance really. my family chose substances over me. my family chose unstable moral grounding over a relationship with me, and that’s okay.
also for those who don’t know, i was pregnant, and am no longer pregnant. i got my period and it just made me a little extra depressed. i was 9 weeks and lost bean in June.
im also struggling very heavy with my self image. after not taking my meds for a bit, i gained some weight, and i know i needed it, but my feelings are still valid.
i can separate my feelings from reality.
im still taking my anti depressants and seeing therapy. im not going to let my anxiety keep me from posting again.
i love what i do. i love using my sensuality for profit. im just not having a good day.
like usual i will be working to keep my mind distracted. no sense in crying over the same thing over and over. but venting is nice.
i know im not alone. i hope you all know that as well. xxx
