Here I look like I have everything under control. But I'm no..
Added 2023-03-25 21:39:06 +0000 UTCHere I look like I have everything under control. But I'm not. It's not like that at all. There's all kinds of hell going on in my head. I thought antidepressants would take away my mental pain, but it was a myth. Expectations didn't come true. Plus I discovered a long-standing, very deep trauma that my psyche had been carefully displacing for over 22 years. It's violence. I'm afraid to tell a therapist about it, very afraid. I feel very ashamed, scared and terribly weak. It feels like life is really meaningless and has been for nothing. I just don't see a future, moreover - I'm ready to live another 7 years at the most. Perhaps this should also be mentioned at the counselling session. I really missed our communication with you, but my pain took all my strength and I just couldn't come here, sorry my dear ones. Write a smiley face if you remembered me or are glad I showed up 💚
