I have been absolutely insatiable this week. All I've been a..
Added 2024-03-15 21:03:49 +0000 UTCI have been absolutely insatiable this week. All I've been able to think is food and getting fuller than ever before. I have baked, I have cooked and ordered so much food, I swear it could feed a whole army. Snacks constantly at an arm's reach and feeling like the only thing that fits me is a pair of extra big sweatpants and a shirt that used to be loose, but now barely covers half of my belly. I feel like every moment of the day I'm either eating or thinking about what to have next. Every meal is loaded with carbs and fats and I can't stop myself before I'm absolutely stuffed. And yet, there's always room for dessert afterwards. Between meals, I'm sitting on the couch or at my desk and mindlessly eating more candy or some chips and only realize I've gone thru the entire thing once I hit the bottom of the bag. Tell myself I'll have just one more cookie, yet over and over again and realize I've eaten the whole patch that I thought would last for at least a few days. And find out it only lasted for a couple of hours. I have been obsessed with the feeling of my growing belly, how much it rounds out as it gets fuller and yet how soft it remains with all the fat. It takes more and more space on my lap and starts to get in the way of doing things. For example, when cooking, I'm constantly mindful of not getting as close to the counter as I did before, because my rounded out stomach hits it earlier than ever before. I am obsessed how my thighs spread more whenever seated, and how they rub together with every step. With every step, I can also feel my belly moving more and more, and I love leaving my overhang free and the way it feels is heaven. I am so desperate for more
