Punish who? Punish you? Punish me? I have changed A LOT ..

Punish who? Punish you? Punish me? I have changed A LOT "sexually" in the last few years of doing this. I used to be purley submisive, but I feel like thats because I have never really enjoyed sex much. So when I was a submisive I got to create a story in my head about what was going on, and it wasnt always an appropriate story for the situation LOL. I liked being a sub because I could just go into pure imagintation and not really worry much about the other person, they would tell me what to do and when to do it, they would add to my imagination with the more dom stuff if they were any good. Then on here I discovered how fun it is to tell other people what to do! How many people love to be shamed and degraded. I could get into an entierly new charcter. Its one of the things I love about custom videos, at least ones that arnt to overly strict with directions, I am a space case and I forget, but a general idea with a few key lines! I have a lot of fun making those videos. On top of that, I used to care a lot more about my looks before. Wearinig tight clothing, belly shirts, bikini tops, short shorts so on. I know I know you love that shit, but now I do all my sexy stuff online and in real life I prefer my sized up grapic t shirts and leggings. Well I prefur pajama pants, but I can hang with leggings. I get the attention I crave online which has caused me to come more into myself as a person offline. I dont want male attention offline. I dont want to deal with people who are attracted to me in person. Why? Because I know I am going to turn them down and they always have more to say then I want to deal with. Like I want to read my book not hear about your stupid new car. I dont want to date you and I also dont want to be your friend. People get offended when you say no to "well can we just be friends then". I have enough friends irl that are hard enough to make plans with and keep up with, I dont want to start up again with some loser at the pool with a car thats to loud! Do I still make friends? Of course, but not friends who want and in depth dive into my life. I have very solid friendships that I could tell the most horrible things to if I wanted and they wouldnt judge me. Sorry I ranted lol got way off topic from sexual things, but when the mind spills it pours. The point was that I used to enjoy sub stuff more then I discoverd dom stuff which can also be fun. But what I discovered with my cosplays, is role play. I dont know a crazy a lot about each charcter, but you can do some fun roldeplays with just one. I prefur doing them on my own as well. The sex stuff, that I do for you. I know you enjoy seeing me get fucked so I have and record it so you can cum for me ;) But the solo stuff is my #1 pick. You cant really be sub or dom on your own, I mean you can but its not the same. But roleplaying another chacarter and how they would masterbate ;)