vulnerable post: I was so skinny then, I knew it was not nat..
Added 2021-10-20 13:42:17 +0000 UTCvulnerable post: I was so skinny then, I knew it was not natural for me to look like this. yet something dark inside me liked it. The pounding fire in my chest and the constant butterflies of death in my heart made me afraid I might finally experience some kind of severe panic attack... I barely slept of ate for months, not because I didn't want to, but because my body just ... couldn't... my mind and heart were steering the ship, and I was escaping a terrible storm that season. Anyway... I know this kind of post isn't very "Onlyfans-ish" but it's my life and my body and my art here... so I am going to share a part of myself I don't really share here often. This was September of 2019. I don't have an eating disorder, in this photo I had been going through several months of a phase of intense strain. I had FINALLY pried my life free from the controlling grasp of an older man who narcissistically abused me for 7.5 years. You may not have read this far. Thats ok. But if you have, please don't judge anyone for staying in an abusive relationship longer than they should have. If you haven't been in that situation, there's no way you can really understand. It was t0rture. I am going to suffer my whole life because of that, but I am much healthier now and I don't wish to "be that thin" again. When I look at photos of myself from them, I feel sad for what happened to me. Sure I like seeing more definition in my abs, but honestly that doesn't matter much to me. I am much physically stronger now. Emotionally too... getting better every day. Photo by Gary Breckheimer (unlock to see the uncensored photo, or join my VIP @KristyJessica and get uncensored stuff all the time in there)
