Addiction and numbness... this may only be relatable if you ..
Added 2023-01-12 22:00:12 +0000 UTCAddiction and numbness... this may only be relatable if you have ever suffered an addiction... and I apologize if it "ruins the fantasy" of who I am in your mind... But if you have ever been addicted to smoking, porn, alcohol, gambling, drugs, sex... etc... you may relate. My modeling - aka how I have made money since I was 18 years old - has desensitized anything that has been used for income generating. I am desensitized to the romantic allure of lingerie, completely normalized to being nude in front of people, and totally numb to people seeing the inside of my pussy and asshole. That doesn't mean I don't *enjoy* being hot and sexy as I am modeling and for people online, but I mean it doesn't fire me up in my personal life because I have traded those elements in for my creative work- I love generating images of eroticism and allure with my body and with sexy lighting and styling, for YOU!!! I have always been afraid that if I begin to sexually stimulate myself on camera, I will become desensitized to that element in my regular life, because that element of my life will have been traded in for my creative work as well... as an addict with an addictive personality, I don't have a sense of moderation (ie: I could never have "just one drink" and in the same way I predict... I could never "just try pushing my modeling boundaries for money a few times") So while I *AM* pushing my own boundaries at this time, I am treading lightly as not to ruin it for myself (and for YOU!) This is all possible because my partner, Travis, is allowing me the support and space to explore with him as we create together, and for myself as I am not being judged by my partner. I cannot express how healing it is to not have a judgemental partner!!!! Anyway enjoy these hott selfies of me ;) Thanks for reading (if you did! this was a long post lol...) *Kristy XoXo PS Unlock for the full nudes and pussy spread!
