Hi loves an little update for you 🖤 new filming gear arrived..
Added 2021-03-24 05:39:07 +0000 UTCHi loves an little update for you 🖤 new filming gear arrived so we’re making progress. Had another little blow up with my mom today. It zaps my emotions and energy and I’m working on improving that. Tomorrow is my dad’s birthday so I’m trying my best to keep my emotions in check so he has a good day. I’ve been practicing: Beat Saber, some monologues, and consistently being kind to myself. The last one is always the hardest for me. If you’re in America...is there anyone else here who still hasn’t even received their tax return from 2019 (not a typo), their $600 stimmy from Jan, and now the most recent one? Like. Lol. On top of losing all work in 2020, up until the end of the year and trying to get my CURRENT taxes done...and I’m still not caught up from a couple years ago. AND I hire a tax accountant. I wasn’t eligible for covid unemployment assistance either because modeling is NOT as lucrative as you think. In the least. And a divorce happening in 2019 as well? That’s gonna mess things up a little. I’m just frustrated. I’m sad. It’s hard to stay positive sometimes and I don’t like talking about it. I’d rather just stay quiet and focus on reframing my thoughts. But tonight I couldn’t even distract myself with exercise. Beat Saber was a total bust. So I guess I’m going to work on filing these tax papers and sending this form to my local congressman so he can look into why I’m still waiting on my money from 2019. I’ve always been an independent business woman but sometimes...sometimes this shit is hard. And I’m so sick and tired of seeing everyone going on vacation. I feel trapped and my mom hasn’t gotten the shot, I haven’t gotten mine yet. Like...I just want to leave. I just want to get out 😩 I’m secretly planning trips in my head. I really miss California. I promise I’ll be back and happier soon. As always, just keeping it real. Hang in there my dudes and dudettes and whatever else you’d like to be called. The night is darkest just before the dawn and if you know that quote you win some more cool points.
