Today I could read this without crying. Today I could rememb..

Today I could read this without crying. Today I could remember this and feel peace. I didn’t know that would ever be possible to achieve again until this morning. Ranger’s absolutely sudden departure was the biggest wake up call of my life. Life is crazy. It’s beautiful. It’s painful. It’s everything all in one and so much more. July 18 is far from my favorite day of the year. And I can honestly say this is the first time in 4 yearrrs that I have been grateful to still be here. That I kept going. Because life has been far from easy. There are so many amazing people I have in my life. People who have showed me what true love and family and honesty and loyalty really mean. People who have helped me realize I’m not “broken”, a phrase that was repeated to me over, and over, and over again for over a decade of my life. I never have been — I am human. And I was putting everything and everyone else first…but myself. Family, former clients that have become family, friends, acquaintances that somehow bring light into my life, my meditation family: I love and appreciate you all so much. Thank you for accepting me as I am, pushing me to become better, and helping me realize my inner strength and power. This transformation that’s taken place in my life is…insane. I’ve gained and I’ve lost but most of all I’m grateful for all that I’ve been through. For every person that’s been in my life, for every person that is still in my life. For all of the lessons I’ve been taught, am still learning, and am still growing through. Continuously evolving. Tomorrow. I return to two of the cities that have tested me beyond all belief. Chicago, our love-hate relationship has been following me around since I was 16 and stepped foot into my first modeling agency. And LA, I left you in January 2020 feeling lower than I ever felt before. And now, I’m coming back to take you on. And conquer. I have an entire army of experience, confidence, and spiritual warriors both on this plane and the next who have my back. So let’s do the damn thing. Dream, conquer, live. Courage is not the absence of despair; it is, rather, the capacity to move ahead in spite of despair. - Rollo May Keep going my loves. Please, keep going. 🤍