Nub Fact Number Eight: “Dragon Daze” So this is gonna be a ..
Added 2022-04-25 16:00:05 +0000 UTCNub Fact Number Eight: “Dragon Daze” So this is gonna be a somewhat heavy one. But, if you get through it, it’s an overall happy ish one. After the accident (and still to this day), i suffered from chronic pain. For awhile, it was under control with meds (perks and muscle relaxers) i took it how it was meant. I was more successful and able…… Until i couldn’t find a doctor who’d take Me as a new patient in the city where i went to school…. And everyone i loved was on dope. I got tired of watching them not feel anything while i suffered, so i gave into it. For five years, i chased that demon to places i could’ve never thought I’d be. I loved the lack of pain, the ability to keep a job because my body wouldn’t give up, until it was too much. I watched my fiancé die twice, and had to leave. To try to find a different option before it was too late. It worked awhile. I went to the dr. Went back to sticking to a regime and going to meetings. Until he doubled my dosage in one visit……and i moved back to the city. Once again…. Couldn’t find a doc. Then smoking didn’t work, neither did my nose….. and then we all know what came next. 5 years i was lost……until i moved home. Until i drove myself, detoxing, alone, across the usa. Literally, all the way across. You face yourself on a drive like that. You learn who YOU are. I’m now about to celebrate 7 years clean from h. These shots are the first few i took after cleaning up the first time. And i show them to you now, to be vulnerable. Idk. Maybe it’ll help one of you understand a friend, or see hope for yourself, or idk, maybe understand me a little. ❤️
