So, the other day I felt really down. University feels so me..
Added 2023-10-29 05:54:45 +0000 UTCSo, the other day I felt really down. University feels so meaningless, I'm stuck on my project because there's always collisions between react native and java (seriously, why did I didn't do it all in Java in the first place?), I'm spending waaay too much time with toxic people who never hesitate to put me down, people that I would need around aren't there (which I don't blame them for, everyone has a life to live) and so my stupid brain starts overthinking things and comes with weird ideas. Such as - maybe if I always looked like in this picture, everything would be better. I know it wouldn't, I'd still struggle to find meaning in things that used to bring me joy but don't bring it anymore. I'd still feel like the uglier sister. I'd still find it hard to connect with people who tell me I'm too kind for this world, and use me up in the next minute. Idk, I hope this mood just fades away soon and I can feel better about myself, in myself again. It's probably just a lot of surpressed stress that causes this, and once this weird semester is over, life will be better again. And in the meantime, I need to look for the little things. Nice songs I discover, inspiring lines I read, moments shared with people that mean no harm. ❤️🩹
