hi yall i just wanted to make an update post regarding my ..
Added 2024-04-27 23:16:02 +0000 UTChi yall
i just wanted to make an update post regarding my (unplanned) extended absence. I'm just going through a mental health roller coaster atm for (imo) no reason lol it could be the change in season, it could be that my hormones are out of wack bc I got my iud replaced at the beginning of the month, or it could just be stress lmao I think that not having a proper break in between my winter and spring quarters for school fucked me more than I expected it to bc I really feel like I'm running on fumes.
I've obviously tried to come back after my whole food poisoning (?) fiasco during spring break, but failed each time. I really didn't mean to take a break from my work here, but its been so hard to even get out of bed these days so I kept pushing my work on here off to prioritize my classwork and my TA job, the days turned into weeks (not counting my scheduled posts which I've now run out of). i do need to get back here to pay rent and bills so I will be fo rcing myself to come back, but I also think its important to stop putting so much pressure on myself (reason why I kept failing to come back tbh) so I will be coming back at a slower pace than usual
tl;dr my depression and anxiety is rearing its ugly head so I haven't been able to find the time/motivation to work. in japan, its believed that motivation doesn't come to you spontaneously, you find it while you are working so ill be slowly coming back in hopes that my motivation comes back lmao
I hope you all understand and ill be getting back to dms today fr!
