fresh outta class, figured some of you would enjoy the scrub..
Added 2020-01-15 21:14:04 +0000 UTCfresh outta class, figured some of you would enjoy the scrubs🤷🏼‍♀️ also trying to build up some content for consistent posting lmao also you can stop reading cause i just wanna get my feelings out and utilize my outlets but, i’ve just been feeling hella blue lately. i don’t know how to describe the feelings as anything else. i’m not like sad. but i’m not happy either. it’s like i’m content with me, who i am, and like that aspect. but my friend, which i don’t remember if i’ve talked as much ab him as i have on tumblr, but he is just confusing the fuck out of me. he’s distanced himself so much lately and has become a different person. he’s desperately trying to avoid being alone and just does the things he knows hurts him. and he wants space from me which i understand considering i had to share a bed with him while i was homeless and trying to figure everything out. but he wants space and complains about me but is the one to always start the conversation and come around me. and i feel like i just sound like a delirious bitch but with our conversations he’s said he had similar feelings to me. he’s never met someone he connected to like me. “we could be soulmates” he agreed. “but just not in the romantic way” like what does that mean. in my head he’s scared of something real. or scared of losing something real. because that’s all our lives have been. but my feelings aside, it just sucks like hell wanting to be there for someone and them just not allowing it.
