I had to take these in a rush because I don’t live alone and..
Added 2021-02-21 19:36:22 +0000 UTCI had to take these in a rush because I don’t live alone and I rarely get time to take photos. This is going to be a long post so please read this carefully. And learn why this is the HARDEST thing I have ever done but I’m doing it because I’m trying to love myself and my body. I am self conscious about myself, even my breasts. I obviously am plus size and my body has been an issue for me for a while. I was a size 00 in 6th to 9th grade, which I realized I have body dysmorphia. Even though I had no breasts, no ass of course and I was a stick. So I gained weight. Which caused me to become depressed because I gained over 100 pounds after being 78. I was 178 at that point, so I developed an eating disorder. I started making myself throw up, I ate so much just to go puke it back up. It was hard, I got very sick, I was going to end up dying because I lost all of that weight I put on again and I had to get put away for a while to get better. After I came home I was a size 12 roughly 123-125 pounds at most then I met my ex boyfriend who I was with for 5yrs. I quickly became depressed and gained weight, again. I didn’t want to go down my dark path of eating disorders so I just gave up and didn’t care about my body/health. We broke up and I’ve lost 15 pounds watching what I eat and trying to make a change again. Just because I’m posting these doesn’t mean I’m okay with my body, but posting these will help me try to overcome whatever I dislike about myself. I get made fun of because of my weight by grown ass adults with children, and this is why I hate my body. I don’t have an ass, I’m not okay with it but this is what I have. You may not like it either, but I posted it. 😭
