Why do I have problems with friendship? We were in a shoe store when she blurted it out to me. Iβm trying on shoes, she looks me in the eyes and says it casually, like nothing happened. βI slept with him.β The guy I had been with for two years. She said it like she was telling me she brushed her teeth this morning or that itβs going to rain. There wasnβt a tremble or any fear in her voice, like he just had soup, except he ate my pussy, and we had sex. Since then, I think the trust in my heart has almost disappeared. Itβs been hard for me to connect with girls since then, and the few friends I had are now married, living a different life. I feel like Iβm in Sex and the City, but alone. By the way, I forgave that guy and spent another four years in an abusive relationship with him. And now Iβm going to put on my black dress, stilettos, and go flirt with that guy at the bar.