As you guys know, I sent out a mass message the other day in..

As you guys know, I sent out a mass message the other day in frustration from a response I received for charging money for my first ever sex tape release. I recognize that I have a tendency to fly off the handle when these things happen, when I honestly should just ignore it and move on.

I’d just like to say that I recognize this and it’s something I want to try to get better at. At the same time, I also want to say that selling content gives me a lot of anxiety because I am often getting negative attention along with the positive attention. I held off on releasing that video for weeks because of the anxiety I was having about someone potentially responding in anger because of my decision to sell it as PPV. It often feels like there’s no winning. I don’t do PPV and my content gets stolen. I try to pivot (despite not wanting to) and things become messy and disorganized. People beg me to post b/g content but don’t want to have to pay for it.

All I can say is that misleading people is something I never have any intention of doing, and if anyone has ever felt that way, I am insanely sorry. I try to make things as fair as I can. I try to be as real and honest as I can. And even then, I had some people unsubscribe because they took my mass message “personally” and it offended them when I expressed my frustrations. It’s hard to know what to do anymore.

I’m going to try to ignore the negativity but that also is something that’s always been a part of my personality. If I see bullshit, I’m gonna point it out. But I realize that it also hurts me financially because I lose supporters, it hurts me mentally because it causes me so much stress, and it’s just a waste of time. So I just wanted to apologize but also express that I’m human and can be quick to respond to hate and it’s not always in the most effective way, and I’m gonna work on it.

Thank you to everyone for sticking around, for resubbing or subbing for the first time, for always supporting me, whether through this platform or others, but especially through the words of kindness and care. I know I’m a mess a lot of the time and I’m going to try to be better.

I love you guys, and I hope you all have a good rest of the week.